jose did this

2006-08-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

BRING THE BEAT BACK. TUNTUNTUNUN.

so im starting to get impolite and i dont know why, i know its not good but i still do it and that gives me the very bad impression of being an ass. i only care about nothing and what am i talking about right now is whimsical and get out. NOW.

i totally feel annoyed of what he did. and eventhough it wasnt me who he is talking about, im still annoyed. but im pretty sure he is referring to me so yeah you suck. ghhad. i hate you. pambihira - an overused term which i want to describe how fucking sucker he is.

PRELIMS WEEK. ive got some dose of the bitch yesterday. i hate my professor in histo so does in my phy ana lab. they look like a bitch and trying to teach some real shit lessons and both of them are not worth of my time. as if may connection.

what every single thing happened last friday is so moron not until we got to ice monster. pizzzass and tooth-aching-diabetes activating-brain freezing-hyperventilating brownie fudges, mango ice and some monster names i cant fucking remember. we left around 8:30pm and some loser stole sam's umbrella. kakatangal lang kaya ng plastic nun.

and also last sunday, when i saw him even in that short span of time-- chris tiu is still sooo hot in those 3 points shot, defense [his weakness], and oh my god smile. i can still remember when my as if hot guys classmate in high school always tell me "chris tiu nanaman! cheer mo naman school natin". eh xavier siya dba? san juan interschool basketball days. cute din kapatid nya.

oh shit, he's so ugly. i swear to death. i mean it. he's so jologs and seriously, he needs some fixing.

there's this two fugly girls in school. they're panget and they're not sexy but they think of themselves as the latter and i dont get it. why? what i only know is the color of their hair which is not natural as usual.

my sister's birthday.

for more, click the link.

2006-08-19T04:49:00.000-07:00

YES NO YES NO?

first it was yes, then it was no, then it was yes again. im starting to get dizzy.

ive been thinking about a lot lately. damn that biostat, the nmat review im planning to get this sembreak, and some pathetic problem that got into me.

and all the things that happened yesterday was sooo good. my teacher is mad at me because my phone rang and she wants me to go out but i didnt and that made me scared seriously. i have a terrible grade in my histology lab. and ive got the worst feelings for my biostat. and and, ive waited for 2 hours just so i could take a cab. got home around 9pm. whats up?

do you think something's wrong with me? raarr. i dont wanna even talk about it. okay so i was introduced to this guy, a cute guy but an inch smaller than me, a cute guy with a nice smile and good and oh so good voice, had the most terrible line i ever heard.

..: oh kilala mo na sila dba? si... si.. si..
him: ah oo. pero teka.. ano na nga ulit name mo? angel?
..: hala.. anong angel? sirangulo ka ba?
him: nde, mukha kasi syang angel.
me: ang baduy mo ah..

eh sino naman ngayon ang hindi matutuwa sa sinasabi ng taong ito sayo? hahaha. seriosuly, ive got the hots for him. seriously....

done.

2006-07-28T09:11:00.000-07:00

IM SO SORRY.. HAHA NDE KO LANG TALAGA MAPIGILAN.

boy 1: hahaha....hindi kaya ng normal na shade yon noh...luluwa

girl 1: ano ba? ang panget nyan ah? yung backpack sa mata nagpapa-hablot na.

ehem: sobra naman..

girl 1: isara na nga at sayang sa space ng computer..

boy 1: long hair, ugly face, big shades, negra, and color kalawang hair, parang squatter

ehem: probinsyanong squatter!

boy 1: eh ano ba sya?

ehem: mumu. hahahaha

girl 2: nkakatakot naman

ehem: sobra ba?

girl 2: natakot kya ko, iclose na at bka sbhin ng nanay ko kung cnung multo.. no joke..

ehem: naman..

girl 2: kahit nde kita friend jose, mas pupuriin kita.

girl 3: muka namang mas maputi at mas sexy ka jan! HAHA

ehem: nde.. aminado na ko na nde ako sexy pero yung puti.. korek!

girl 3: may bigote pa nga oh!at ang eyebags. haha parang wala akong eyebags eh noh!

ehem: girl, kahit meron ka.. sling bag palang yan.. eh naman ang kanya, "BACKPACK". ano ka?

.....

girl 3: haha! mas maganda ka sa kanya friend!

close ko na, naalibadbaran aku. haha [nde ko ilalagay yung joke.. ayaw ko nga]

ehem: ako din!
girl, nde naman questionable yun dba?
makinis lang sya..
kahit naman nde yung aken, eh kung ang panget nya.. wala rin yung kinis nya dba?

girl 3: hndi naman sha makinis?!
makinis ba?!
eh maitim naman. so parang hindi na rin makinis un kung makinis man nga sha!!

♥♥♥♥♥
girl 3: wag mo na patulan!

ehem: mag-aaral nalang ako ng phy ana! haha

---

the names have been kept for total privacy. bwahahaha. kung gusto malaman, pwes itanong nalang ng pa-pribado din.

ITOY PAWANG KATOTOHANAN AT WALANG HALONG BIRO. HINDI ITO IMBENTO AT HINDI ITO GINAWA PARA MANGGULO NG BUHAY NG TAO. ITOY AKING KINOLEKTA SA NGALAN NG AKING MGA KAIBIGANG TOTOO AT MGA TAONG AKING MAPAGKAKATIWALAAN, SADYA NG SIRKUMSTANSYA, GUMANA ANG BITCH POWERS NG MGA TAONG ITO.

PASENSYA SA MGA MATATAMAAN, at PASENSYA SA MATATAMAAN!

one more...

BWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA let the game begin... AGAIN.

2006-07-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

OH SYA SYA.. BASTA

the stars in the sky will never be the same

daw.

2006-07-16T20:30:00.000-07:00

FRIENDSHIP ISNT ABOUT...

whom you have known the longest,
who came first,
or who cares the best.

It's about who came and never left.

Happy Birthday People. :)

2006-07-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

DON'T DO POWER PLAYS.

my lola was admitted in the hospital. hindi ako mapakali. i dont want to see people whom i dearly love lying on a bed with those damn dextrose, oxygen and for all i care, doctors and nurses who are so bitch.

i like mr. aquino's way of teaching SCL 9: Marriage and Family. yeah, with his sound effects and body movements who acts like mr. bean compared to the others who are so shit, blah blah blah! but one thing i dont like about is his rule when you're late for one minute!! he'll make you sing any song infront of your classmates before he will start with his gaddamn discussion.

now tell me, what song will i sing?

.. sa likod ng mga ngiti mo, mga tawang mapagpanggap..
naiintindihan ko, naman, ang lungkot na nararamdaman..
malas mo!!
ako pala ang malas.

2006-06-28T08:25:00.000-07:00

AFTER SO MUCH CONTEMPLATION...

i like people who has this "angas looks" when you see it for the first time but still has a good attitude towards people like gerald from PBB, i never liked him before but when i saw his good and kilig traits with his housemates for 40 days, gaah i was like "man you're a knight with sparkling teeth", whatever.

unlike bryan who is not popular but with his angas looks and ~~cute smile,~~ BUT neither nice nor kind attitude will not affect our life.

may effect pang dedma, tsk, if i know gusto naman nya lumapit at mag-sorry.

poor kid.
jeerah and i, are rich.

bet you.

2006-06-07T18:25:00.000-07:00

BUT I DONT KNOW HOW TO..

stop my being soooo sad right now.

my brother, who is so very close and dear to me will leave manila tomorrow with our dad going to cebu. remember when i said in a previous post that dad got appointed as an associate justice? yeah, associate justice in cebu!

as i was fixing my brother's luggage, tears fell in my eyes. i couldnt believe that these, the leaving stuff is possible to us. i mean, who will be now the angelo who i always get angry on whenever i dont see him eating large amount of food, when his clothes were messed up in our room? he sleeps beside me and tomorrow, none of it will help me.

i know he needs me somehow. thats why im so sad because i know he's not yet ready to be alone, alone with our dad.

its different without him. its different without angelo in our house. and its very different when angelo will not hear anything from my mouth anymore when he's already there.

dang shit.

2006-06-06T16:31:00.000-07:00

666 DAW.. MGA PAUSO NG MGA TAO TALAGA.

2006-06-04T18:05:00.000-07:00

JUST A THOUGHT..

they always have someone.

2006-05-25T05:18:00.000-07:00

MMDA, MY DAD, and NONSENSE.

first.

bayani fernando and his wife should be the role model of our country. they do everything to make philippines a clean/good country. from the pink urinals, to the pink fences, to the kadena de amors everywhere, to the overpasses, to the repainting of walls, removal of unfortunate people and transferring them to a nice place, the free deodorants and cologne, are things a normal politician/president would not and cannot do. now i dont see any point of people getting mad because what they can do will not just benefit them or their names but for our own future as well. people should learn to change. we all should.

buti nga at pinapakelaman pa nila ang pilipinas, magtaka tayo kung wala itong ginagawa at naka-upo lang sila at nagpapalaki ng kanilang sariling puwet.

second.

my dad was appointed associate justice together with 4 of his friends i think some last week. he already swore infront of the chief justice and this end of may to the president. he will soon leave our house because of his appointment at cebu and to tell you exactly and honestly, im saddened by the fact that its not a good situation for me. ewan basta hindi ito magandang simula ng magandang kabuhayan para saken. yun nga lang, there are two sides of it. mas sosyal na ang trabaho nya, panget na ang bahay ng wala sya. period.

third.

summer is nearly over. i cant wait to see my classmates again and again. oh god, i miss having classes with them.

2006-05-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

TSK TSK TSK...

if things were meant to be.. let it be.

i miss the place bigtime.

2006-04-16T06:31:00.001-07:00

I HATE TO ADMIT IT..

but im a bit excited,

SUMMER CLASSES na...

2006-04-11T10:45:00.000-07:00

PUERTO GALERA..

soo nice.
check my multiply account some other time for the pics.

hot people are everywhere plus nice and cool people.

one-damn-summer break.

2006-03-28T08:06:00.000-08:00

CHEMISTRY: 3 DOWN, 4 MORE.

i told you, i can finish 3 majors in one semester.
kaso nga lang, i dont think i deserve a grade of 2.75 in my physics and botany.
i know i did good, sayang pala ang effort kung ganun.

im going to swim on friday,
enchanted kingdom next week with jansen and allyson. (geesh, weird name but he's from up-d and so cute)
beach on the 6th of april,
tagaytay, baguio, and subic is still on hold for now.
tsk tsk tsk, ive been to enchanted kingdom, eurostar, and some carnivals but ive never been to star city.
enough for the sooo hot climate.

a bit excited for my summer class with karl and peter. yehey! :)
peter's my classmate in trigo last summer and karl's a transferee from plm.
so yeah.
which brings me to tell you that some of my niice classmates will be taking up comparative anatomy for nmat.
sana ako rin. :) haha. pero, nde pa pwede.

btw, dj tiesto and channing tatum is so hohuuum.

and if i were my brother angelo, i would go for csb and take multimedia arts rather than the home of the jologs ust for hell non-sense course in the whole world.

2006-03-22T09:10:00.000-08:00

OF ALL.. ITS HELL WEEK AGAIN.

FINALS na.
2 majors to go.
CHEMISTRY at PHYSICS pa.

leche.
never-ending.

2006-03-14T05:41:00.000-08:00

IT WAS MONDAY...

since then, everything falls into its right place.

thanks :)

2006-03-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

MONGOLOIDS..

2006-02-23T16:57:00.000-08:00

EDSA day....

tomorrow. :)

2006-01-31T06:51:00.000-08:00

NEXT PLEASE...

[with boys]

should be:
( x ) tall
( x ) light-colored
( x ) handsome
( x ) nice
( x ) has a sensible and corny (this sometimes work for me) humor
( x ) rich

i never take the handsome part or one of the six god knows what that is for granted when it comes to boys so you jeerah and bryan should leave me when i say "nakakadiri" is the term for _________.

[botany, physics, chemistry]

prelims is congruent to torture as well as agony and misery and so on and so on. literal na matinding kamustahan toh. im going to have three straight days of pure major exams next week.

[people]

some are pathetic, some are bullshit, some are bitch faces, while some are shit faces.
they do useless and say the most corny cliche's.
whats up?

2006-01-10T05:42:00.000-08:00

TRUST ME WHEN I SAY: IT DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALL.

im getting jaded, help me..

I SO HATE IT WHEN:

people sings only the chorus part like they really know the whole song. the na-na-na-na is panget.
people wears the "baggy stuffs". wearing laylay maong pants and rubber shoes is like wearing a garbage bag.
girls wear the sporty thing. going to the mall wearing cap, plain shirt, sporty pants, and rubber shoes is so nakakadiri. may kasama pang shades!
F.C.'s - feeling close
people spits everywhere. so kadiri.
people who dont know how to flush toilet. how can one label the CR a comfort room when its all so mabaho.
people doesnt know how to wash their hands after peeing. kadiri tapos hahawakan ka?
people talks so loud inside the movie house. batukan ko kaya kayo?
using the me-you language. its so irritating in case you dont know. questions like where na you, kamusta na you, mabuti lang me are so irritating to the ears.
typing LiKe tHiS iS sO SHiT and putting "H" in every word. mish na kita, kamustah kah nah, opoh. eeee, ang sarap itapon nalang yung cellphone eh.
HOT GUYS HAVE UGLY GIRLFRIENDS. whats the point?
strangers stare at you. kulang nalang kainin ka.
people posing in pictures na kala mo sikat or astig.

and the list isnt over. i can go on and on and who cares?

start the year RIGHT people.

2005-12-27T04:37:00.000-08:00

THE BEST PART WAS...

when i had a pre-christmas dinner with my high school bitches. then we went to the according to my vocabulary: the club for all ages- ipanema, and dance like mongoloids when there's this african-dark-indian-ugly looking guy told me:
you dance good.

at least i dont have to ask everyone if i dance stupidly. (huh?)

happy new year everyone.

2005-12-09T20:22:00.000-08:00

TACKLE DRUNK BITCHES.

december is the month where many persons celebrate their birthdays. and that includes mine, to Jesus, and so to my friends. if i didnt/cant greet you (this doesnt apply to Jesus) on the date it was supposed to be then so sorry. i have a bunch of crap things thats running in my mind right now and even i, cant fix it.
pharmacy week was so gay eversince it started. you go to class at 8, getting there by means of walking really fast and so like a stupid moron, only to see those classmates getting out of that fucking classroom and telling you "wala ng klase, uwi ka na.." god, i wish you were here when i did that.

and then since classes started this second semester, i didnt have the time to pamper myself. and so im looking forward to the christmas break that's coming 7 days from now. :)

there's this guy from ab, he's so hot, he goes to gym, he has a nice body, he is the vice president of their society (jason told me, im not a stalker), has a good face, he teaches math in our nstp, he knew i was so into him, and geez, so much from the nice words. :) and i tell you, he doesnt have a nice name. and so? by the way, people from lts (based on my section) are so nice.

as im watching pinoy big brother's my big kapamilya hero wherein students, artistas, or anyone whose willing to help, should be given a warm round of applause (nyeh). i was so touched with what they're doing. how many times did i plan on having christmas or birthday celebration on an orphanage. how many times did i plan to give (based on my age) 17 or 18 sets of toiletries to the needy persons. i cant make it happen because of my laziness. shit.. and as i finish this entry, i so sympathize myself.

last week, temple bar doesnt appeal good to me, and so does the metro dj club bar. i havent been to government and embassy. so yeah, wait for me.

exams coming up next week. :) goodluck to everyone. and then, to ME.
Merry Christmas. :)

2005-12-02T15:06:00.000-08:00

WHERE IS HE, WHERE IS HE, WHERE IS THIS BEAUTIFUL GUY?

dream on.

attending my saranggani class during saturday makes me a very weird person. i know i dont do good when i hear the terrible and so scary word "MATH", but i pathetically sympathize with those people who cant even add 2 plus 2 or multiply 1 by 1. i hope the government should take an action to this because when they grow up, filipino children will going to be an idiot like me someday. and so, will you second me when i say "the children is the future of our nation" is sooo unbelievable?

crazy.

hopping from one bar to the another bar and to the another bar is so crazy. you get the picture? whatever. i also didnt get it.

2005-11-09T06:23:00.000-08:00

BECAUSE OF BIOTECHNOLOGY, TOMATOES BECOME FRENCH FRIES.

a quote which i will be going to live with forever. and since i am talking about baloneys, im betting like they do in jai alai far from the fine grades on my three majors this semester. and i should because its not easy to earn thirty seven thousand and something something nowadays. fucking evat. i dropped PE. i have two sections. i have good friends. i was the successor of the "key to success" by my bitches. i saw nicholas when i enrolled last week and he is so cute and so tall and so aarrrgh. i am so laughing real hard when my technical writing professor once said "in our monthly period, this is what we will going to do.... this goes for boys also". i miss my some friends whose in the US, in different colleges, in different universities, and i dont know. im always seeing this shit. im looking forward for the christmas party i am arranging. i am demanding for a baon increase. i demand for another swedish massage. my birthday will be whatever days from now. our high school graduation song is playing in my mom's player. im going to develop tomorrow our pictures. and im going to rest as in right now.

2005-11-06T05:25:00.000-08:00

WE HAD...

swedish massage and it is soooo good.

2005-11-01T06:29:00.000-08:00

THE FIRST 20 PEOPLE.

1. tetet
2. teppie
3. jen-whore
4. vince
5. meech
6. erica
7. alexis
8. dony
9. topher
10. roxanne
11. malou
12. joyce
13. louie
14. angelo
15. timmy
16. francez
17. caroline
18. nikki
19. ladie
20. rhea

How did you meet ..13?
blockmate, school.

What do you honestly think of 10?
flirty bitch. haha :)

Have you ever liked 3?
yeah, we're both the drunk bastards.

Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?
they're both girls :) sorry.

Do you think 12 is hot?
so hot.

Who is 8 going out with?
bed guys. haha :)

Is 9 a boy or a girl?
boy.

When was the last time you talked to 5?
evaluation day in school.

What is 1's favorite band?
i dont know. duhh.. it depends on his mood.

Does 2 have any siblings?
yes, 4 brothers.

Would you ever date 6?
why not? :)

Would you ever date 7?
sure.

15 single?
no, she's currently dating the hot guy from college of science.

what is 19's last name?
teh.

What does 17 look like?
dark, fat, ugly bitch. kidding..

what is 10's fantasy?
find the right man i guess.

Would 14 and 19 ever get together?
my brother and my classmate? whatever.

What school does 16 go to?
ust-medical technology.

What school does 1 go to?
ust-nursing.

Where does 9 live?
somewhere in sta mesa

Would you make out with 13?
no.

Are 5 and 6 best friends?
they dont even know each other, so how come?

Is 20 older than you?
no. im older than her.

Is 4 the sexiest person alive?
zanjoe narudo is the sexiest person alive, you know.

Do you like number 9?
yeah, once.

What do you honestly think of 10?
weird, craaazy, fine ass.

2005-10-16T11:00:00.000-07:00

BREAK.

let me sleeeeeeeep.
2 stabs down, 5 more to go.
leche yan.

2005-10-10T19:30:00.000-07:00

LOSERS.

because you are so whoooah.
daming drama.. nakakainis naman.

-------
i can stand stupidity.
trust me because i am.

2005-09-25T17:55:00.000-07:00

PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE YOUR THINGS UNATTENDED.

we were about to leave the place when his mother came.
he was like "mom, this is jose.. this is this.. this is that.. and blah blah blah"
and then his mom was like "oh, so you're jose. parati ka nya nga binabangit sakin eh. mabait ka daw kasi"

i have to admit it.
sometimes, im having the "goosebumps" when saying i was so touched with that.
thank you for the ride.

2005-09-21T23:00:00.000-07:00

OH GREAT.

that no matter how hard i try to keep everything to myself,
people always tend to know each and every juicy detail about it.
dang shit.

---
if you have over 300 pictures stucked up in your computer,
advise me on what to do with it.
okay?

some of it :)

2005-09-14T10:03:00.000-07:00

LESSON:

NEVER USE THE WORD MAGNANAKAW AS A JOKE.
even if you dont mean it.
a joke or you're just joking was never a different thing in my vocabulary.
you better watch those words coming out from your fucking pussy-like crap.
its not funny.

if i can do it to the person i used to value most then, its my honor and pride to do the same with you.
whatever.

---
it's old but im still into it.
im still into it.
i miss him.
dang like crazy motherfucker.

2005-09-10T02:46:00.000-07:00

NOW I KNOW..

girls are never a good company when you go to tutuban/divisoria.
wheew.
my feet hurts like hell yesterday.
tsk tsk tsk.

2005-09-08T16:36:00.000-07:00

PSSST..

we had BURGERS.

after school.
after we watched the volleyball game of pharmacy vs. ab
[we won!]
after the boring day yesterday.
motherfucker.

2005-08-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

OUR PRINCE, BABY, LONGGANISA, MARTYN.

It was the eve of the New Year 2005 when I saw my elder sister crying in front of my mom and my grandmother. Two nagging suspicions of she being pregnant or she breaking up with her boyfriend, for I’m hearing my two other sisters’ comments saying “that guy is gago/stupid”. 3 days after, my mom confirmed to me that my sister was pregnant. And then I cried. I barely heard what she was talking about because I was crying hard. I could not even answer and tell her clearly the words, “I don’t want to see any of my sisters suffer pains”. At that time I didn’t know any better, I even asked my mom if we can abort the baby so dad won’t get mad at my sister or asked the people around if they can bang my head against the wall to tell this isn’t real and that this was a nightmare. It all felt so surreal because I couldn’t believe it was happening to our family the things I just see on TV.

After 9 months, It was quite overwhelming for me. It dawned on me that there was a much greater responsibility ahead of me as a brother to my sister and as an uncle to my nephew. There’s this little baby whom we needed to take care of-bathe, feed, clothe, and love because my sister and my nephew’s father is currently studying for their board exams in nursing and in physical therapy. They’re not married and so the baby lives in the house of our grandmother. He often visits the baby when his time allows. I also visit the kid often and he provides me relief from. It requires a lot of adjustments because I do not want to be the typical uncle, I want to see him grow, hear his first word, watch him while he’s doing his first walk, see him smile, see him cry, etcetera etcetera. My emotions are indescribable until this time. I can still remember how I held him into my arms as he opened his eyes for the first time. Why? Because I care.

So I realized, there can’t be any regret. Life just got a little bit more difficult, and it’s just something I/we all have to deal with. I hope all of you can help me in praying for my family and for my nephew longganisa.

----
this was the piece i delivered during our speech communication subject and oh boy, i insist everybody should call him "martyn longganisa" because he is so big, fat, just like a longganisa. haha.

2005-08-03T17:38:00.000-07:00

HAY NGA NAMAN.

and what's worse is the fact that i still dont get it.
bullshit cunanan.

2005-07-27T06:04:00.000-07:00

GREETINGS.

i have a present for you
but since im afraid i might be snobbed
ill just do it here.

owkay owkay,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY. :)
and you take care.

2005-07-25T06:05:00.000-07:00

BULLSHIT CUNANAN.

wwhoo jennipart.
eventhough we didnt go clubbing, we still had fun.
now, who would think that we can ever fit in that accord again?
we're six fat bastards. ay kayo lang pala.
and the hell with that shiyettt man, cesar is ssooooo HOT.
half mexican / half french. shhit.
tell your brother to bring that fucking man next year again.
did i just agree with you?
so you better post our peekchoors now.
peekchoor ng peekchoor.
bullshit cunanan.

and next time, its not just an overnight stay.
it will be, weeks then months till my mother wont accept me anymore at my house.
and then next time, you tell your mother about dr. olalia's damn HOT son.
(nakuh, nursing nanaman)

owkay, i am so paking tired now.

2005-07-17T10:21:00.000-07:00

YOU WILL REMEMBER...

by Pablo Neruda

You will remember that leaping stream
where sweet aromas rose and trembled,
and sometimes a bird, wearing water
and slowness, its winter feathers.

You will remember those gifts from the earth:
indelible scents, gold clay,
weeds in the thicket and crazy roots,
magical thorns like swords.

You'll remember the bouquet you picked,
shadows and silent water,
bouquet like a foam-covered stone.

That time was like never, and like always.
So we go there, where nothing is waiting;
we find everything waiting there.

---
go read the 100 love sonnets by pablo neruda. :)

2005-07-07T03:00:00.000-07:00

AIYA.

the truth of the matter is.. DAN is one helluva hot guy.
he smiles just the way you/i like it.
PUCHA TALAGA.

kung pwede lang na isulat ang emosyon, eh di ginawa ko na.
kung pwede lang gawin ang mali sa mata ng iba, ginawa ko na.
eh sa hindi eh, ano ba meron?
P3.50 nalang kasi ang isang sachet ng shampoo.
haha.
patayin mo nalang kaya?
nde pwede eh.

its martyn's first month today. :)
sharing..

there are some people you can read in one look, some can be befriended in one smile, others can be aquainted in one hour...and still there are others who require not only interest and time but affection to open themselves up. to know me, it requires "the last process".

gets?

2005-06-30T10:36:00.000-07:00

OLA OLA OLA. OLA OLA OLA.

reminds me of someone..

..dont bother asking

2005-06-15T05:13:00.000-07:00

FIRST DAY FUNK... THE SHIT.

FIRST CLASS: the 9-11 PE.

first and foremost, darn it for i have to endure with the fuckin' heat again. second, i dont know why am i taking sepak takraw. there's only two hot guys in my PE class. haha. :) no girls, no competition. so let the attention all be mine! haha. so far so good. after pe class, i dropped by at the guidance office and then boom, i know i know, people are happy to see me again. sapphire is so shit, her boyfriend is eddie mendez and she told him i have a crush on him. haha.

and then people came, one of them is a hot guy from cfad. ang kulit, sabi ng he can call me "sweety" or "honey". ang kulit daw kasi ng name na jose. haha.

got to talk with my "missible" persons. and then i saw this hot guy from my pe class. whhew, i can know his name by next week. bet?

1. CHEM 200, LIT 101, PGCART --- are fine.
dear chem, please dont fail me in this one. :)
2. teppie gave me something from victoria's secret.
3. the cakes got screwed up by the ants.
4. reg didnt like it when i said, "tara pictures tayo! first day funk eh"
5. cena got a new hair-do just like erica. (the girl from memories in bali)
6. i miss my pamangkin. haha uncle will see you next week. :)
7. and him. totoo noh.

8. FRANKIE J is the donn. minus the bling blings and all that shit.

my first day is a funk one--seriously.

2005-06-11T23:54:00.000-07:00

MY PAMANGKIN IS...

sleeping. view his album if you want.

2005-06-08T08:35:00.000-07:00

THE LAW. .

states that illegitimate children shall use the surname of their mother and are under their mother's parental authority. They have no right to use their father's surname unless the latter acquiesced in the use thereof or were duly acknowledged by him as his illegitimate children or unless they were adopted by their father.

blah blah blah.
do i have to elaborate that?
dude, my dad works as a judge--the one who makes decisions. remember?
so yeah, he studied law for four years and he became a lawyer because he passed the bar exams.
if you won't agree with the law, then you better change our president and make your own SOB law. gotdamnit.
even I, with no intentions in studying the law, knows that freakin family code blah blah law.

ive got the worst patheticism for you.

2005-06-06T12:08:00.000-07:00

I PREFER...

to be called UNCLE than TITO in the future. :)
para sosyal ng konti maski hindi.

2005-06-02T09:55:00.000-07:00

SHOOT THE HELL OUT OF ME.

Host: May Asawa?
Participant: Meron po.
H: Anong trabaho?
P: Wala po eh.
H: Ilan ang anak?
P: Anim po.
(and the 7th is in her womb pa.)
H: Ilan araw ka pumila?
P: Mga tatlong linggo po.

A jobless father, with 6 children and counting, with a mother who exerted all her effort in joining a noontime show. What a common picture in most Filipinos nowadays.

Just by getting in, (not even bothering the heat of the sun) gives them the way of not working hard for the money they will get. Yes, they worked hard in answering the obvious questions. Which in reality, you will not get a twenty thousand or a million pesos just by answering yes or no.

kung sino pa yung kapos sa pera, siya pa yung higit sa isa ang anak, na kulang nalang ay gumawa ng isang team ng basketball. kumpara sa mga may kaya na kakaunti lang ang anak.

A line which our Filipino professor for two semesters always tell us whenever boredom kills her. Its a line which I always quote whenever I'm watching those noontime shows who do plain bullshits with the people.

So stupid.
It really is.

2005-05-28T12:33:00.000-07:00

SO ELEMENTARY.

the testimonial my friend gave to my-super-so-hot-love-kim arthur marcelo dated March 30, 2004:

ive known him since like im still

in my 6th grade

kase crush zia nun ka-barx ko before…

newcomer zia nun taz sobwang

obsessed siya kay kym…

(obsession ba yun? o love na? haha..)

---
biglang may ganyan akong nabasa.
nagulat tuloy ako.
not knowing that he's just studying near the school i graduated high school.

2005-05-26T19:48:00.000-07:00

NOT NOT.

can somebody please explain to me why does the only picture of him is missing since qwpeiopfjas?

nag-iisa na nga lang eh.

check my section's friendster page.
onehmt@hotmail.com
its cool---like the fucking weather.
how i wish someone will thank me for doing that.

2005-05-24T11:00:00.000-07:00

THIS SHIT IS BANANAS. B-A-N-A-N-A-S.

there are..
times i have been lost.
times i have no one to cry on.
times i needed someone to be there.
times i need to surpass this lonely road,
when i have to stand up just to face my fears.

but..
there are times that i have to be deserted
..to know the meaning of life.
times that i have to be isolated
..to know my purpose in life.
and times that i have to be secluded
..to know the sense of life.

no one would dare bump me and ask me,
"you're freak. what's wrong with you? tell me.."

2005-05-19T22:52:00.000-07:00

CALLATE!!

remember when we we're together
we used to do things in our own way
we used to laugh till our stomach aches
not until he came

remember what you said
that you will not do anything to mess one thing you treasure the most
well guess what, you did
when he came

now im all alone
thinking what could have gone wrong
longing for your smile
missing you
wishing i was there for you
yearning to be with you
i know it would be one of the great things in my life
not until he came

i shrink
when i see you and him together
when you chose being with him instead of me
i strive to
just to disregard you
so i wont be disappointed
with the horrible times of my life.

i guess it just doesn't and shouldn't.
im sick of it.
every one does---i guess.

2005-05-16T22:09:00.000-07:00

NOW MY LOYALTY WILL ALWAYS BE..

he asked me again for my number and i gave it this time.
we had this beer drinking yesterday and he's beside me.
and he turned red because he told the other girl to drink the beer straight.
he lost and i told him, "do you have younger brothers?"
kase pag meron, bad influence ka.. umiinom ka. haha. :)
and i get kilig coz he's looking into my eyes.
READ: hindi siya lasing...

eh kung lasing siya, eh ano naman?
baka seryoso talaga. haha. :/

---
do you remember the secret deodorant commercial when there's this certain girl standing at the rails of an supposed-to-be airport waiting for his brother?

go, read this.

jose: jen, late ka nanaman. ano ba yan? hinintay mo nanaman ba brother mo?
alexis: oo eh, hindi pa kasi sya dumadating eh.
jose: ano? May na ah? ang tagal naman na flight yan.
alexis: eh sa nde pa dumadating eh. ano magagawa ko?

haha. its so funny. we both end up laughing.
she told me yesterday that her boyfriend invited me to her surprise party last week and i dont answer his calls.
sorry jen. hahaha. ill make you libre na nga lang din pag nagkita tayo eh. haha. :) ill miss you..

---
ill go to pampanga next week for my blockmate's debut on the 28th.
and to our house in davao after that week.

(cousins, beach, inaanaks, get ready!!)
and to visit our farm in batangas again.

---
have a GREAT summer everyone.
im sure i will.

2005-05-12T02:21:00.000-07:00

YEAH.

few minutes after the test, our hungry stomachs cant decide as where to eat and so we stopped by at the stairs. after a few minutes, someone tapped me and said hi. after talking and exchanging some non-sense thoughts, he asked for my number just in case. and as i was about to say the zero, someone said "wont you ask me for my number?"

shitman. WTF are you trying to do? force him to like you? haha. :/

then i said, "im hungry now, let's eat somewhere outside."
then they barged in and said, "whoo... gusto mo lang siya makasama eh."
that's why he said, "nde na din. kumain na ko eh."

and so, the next time i will see him--i'll make sure im all alone.
JUST IN CASE. :)

2005-05-06T12:30:00.000-07:00

DOMO ARIGATO, ROBOTO.

haha.
summer's heat is killing me.
melodramatic bitches are starting to annoy me.
both of them.
they sound so gay.

---
SHOUT-OUTS TO: (nyeh)
brian - haha, alam ko na kelan bday mo. :) yabang mo ah.
teppie - shet, namimiss na kita. umuwi ka na..
erica - haha, fine. nde na ko galit kay macky (escalona) mo.
joyce - pasalubong ko? :)
tetet - hintayin mo ko bukas ah.
jayme - thanks ah. sabi ko sayo chinese guy na lang eh.
jansen - haha, sorry. i wasnt able to come with you to that bambang.
eya - nakita ko si vain kanina. as usual, feeling again. haha. :)
macky (glorioso) - shet crush kaya kita nung high school. haha.
alexis - you'll make me libre pa. you told me yesterday noh.
michael - hmmp. mikko pala ah. ang arte.
jec - miss ko na kaya si allan pati na rin si anton. :) haha.
jam - happy birthday. nagglow yung cake mo sa friendster eh.
david - nasan na kaya toh? haha. miss na kita.
marion - yehey! napalitan nya na yung pic nya.. haha.
roxanne - haha. i miss you.
christopher - haha. nde na kita nakkta sa ym ah?
andrew - haha, wala lang.
jb - =)

---
i spit cuss
i puke profanity
but i'm really nice
and down to earth as well.

you bet.

2005-05-02T01:46:00.000-07:00

AUTOMATIC, SUPERSONIC, HYPNOTIC, FUNKY FRESH.

*Nonsense
What's your name?
- Jose Rommel C. Barza
When is your birthday?
- December 15.
What is your favorite song?
- let me go by 3 doors down.
Are you close to your cousins?
- i suppose.
How are you?
- im doing great. what about you?
Are you weird?
- yes i am.
Can you whistle?
- i cant. sorry.
Are you happy?
- if being happy means being around with him, then im guilty.
What's your favorite fairy tale?
- sleeping beauty.
What's your favorite TV show?
- the OC, one tree hill, and joey.
What do you want to be when you grow up?
- a medical technologist slash pediatrician.
Do you know how to speak spanish? french? tagalog?
- tagalog is our language right? then a little spanish.
What do you want to say to the person you hate most?
- go to hell or it would be better if you will just DIE.

*Love
What is LOVE?
- love is everywhere. so dont seek one, let it seek you.
Who's yor first crush?
- christopher. when we we're in high 2.
What did you like about him?
- his built. his looks. everything in between.

*Ideal Guy
Suplado?
- not a problem.
Muscled?
- a bit. but please, not the 6 packs. i hate it.
Gives flowers?
- oh my guh. that would be sweet.
Hiphop?
- then get out of my sight.
Has earrings?
- that's for girls.
Long Hair?
- no way.
Torpe?
- haha. i dont care.
Basketball player?
- as long as he has what it takes to be one then let him be. (he's a varsity player in high school by the way.)
Mr. Count-my-ex's-till-you-drop?
- hah! ill kick your balls.
Guys who sings well?
- i dont know if he can sing well, so yeah, count him in. i want to hear him singing infront of our house----kidding.
Quiet/Tame?
- yes.
Friendly?
- he should be.
Soccer Hottie?
- he's not a player, still he's hot. so next question.
Guitarist?
- yes yes, definitely.
Loves you?
- my gosh. i suppose so.

---
get a life.

2005-04-27T04:31:00.000-07:00

IM THE MEANEST PERSON.

according to someone.
and i could be nice when i have to.
and that's not with you!

but hey,
after knowing him made me stop from being one.
and probably end it right at this very moment.
i assure you. :/

he's really HOOTTT.
he's moreno.
he's good.
he's nice.
he's tall. (5'11 to be exact)
he's machooo.
he's not singkit. (and that's why tetet told me, i am IMPROVING.)
and i cant stop myself from drooling over him.
he talks with me straight into my eyes and i cant help myself from melting.
yaaww, nde tayo sabay kanina.
hahaha.
tomorrow.. im sure of that.

now, i wont ask for more.
did i ask anything by the way?
blessings come when you deserve it.
so, keep the blessings coming. :)

2005-04-22T23:57:00.000-07:00

AS I CAN SEE, HAPPINESS IS PRICELESS.

i didn't pay for it.
i swear :/
so basically, being happy is FREE.

a nice guy. <33
a hottt guy.
a tall guy.
a helpful guy.
he's kind. :)
he drives a Pajero.
all in one.

ill see you on monday, ok?
i can't wait either. (diba kristine?)
haha

:/
go on and be happy everyone.

2005-04-15T10:36:00.000-07:00

TO DO TWO THINGS AT THE SAME TIME IS TO DO NEITHER.

when I found you,
my eyes opened to my wants. my desires. my needs.
i know for once in my entire life what I really want.
i've never felt this sure of anything.
i've never had anyone like this one.
i've never had someone out of my league.
i've never loved someone for no valid reason.
i've never loved someone because i just do.
i can't imagine me without you now.
and if I can't have you, then I couldn't ever be happy again.
what's it all worth?
what's my life worth?

---
went (again) to tetet's house (as i always do) last wednesday and caught him red-handed sleeping (yuck ang panget) in his parent's room. :/

his mom: jose, pasok ka. ayan si tetet oh, natutulog pa.
his sister: ayan siya oh..
me: hoy! gumising ka nga..

it was never a bore talking to his family. free food, 2 spoiled playful kids, and tetet himself. laughed the entire afternoon.

FUN. FUN. FUN.

then yesterday, dench, together with his friends, and i had a good laugh while waiting for our teacher. and may you know who is beside me? of all, a cute guy.

today, it was amazing (really?). walked along espanya with andrew. hay kulit.

---
and would you please stop making rumors? once and for all, who said i liked him? my god. im sticking to my good 'ol preferences. not with YOURS. im just so sorry if you've got a preference as corny as your ~~pretty~~ face. pathetic. kapal ng mukha mo. in the first place, who said i liked him? kayo lang ang nagpipilit na sabihin gusto ko siya.

i believe i know myself more than anyone does.

---
i dont need to reaffirm myself if im gay or not. i guess it just shows.
and i dont have to tell everyone neither anyone if i am gay or not. you just have to know.

hello, everyone knows i am.

my gosh, for guts glory someone said, i was trying hard to be one.

so sorry..

GET YOUR FACTS FIRST, AND THEN YOU CAN DISTORT THEM AS MUCH AS YOU PLEASE.

---
jen and his so-hot brother (who are both excited to come in the philippines) will finally be here this summer.
so its all baywalk till morning, jelly beans, trying hard to fit in a corolla with 6 of us, singing with i-pod, food fest, and a lot more.
excited.

---
now teach me how to levitate. :/

blessings come in their own way.
keep it up! :)

2005-04-10T13:07:00.000-07:00

LOVERS AND FRIENDS.

Sometime wanna be your lover,
Sometime wanna be your friend,
Sometime wanna hug ya,
Hold hands, slow-dance while the record spins,
Opened up your heart 'cause you said I made you feel so comfortable,
Used to play back then,and now you all grown-up like Rudy Huxtable,
I could be your bud, you could beat me up.

just friends.
no more no less.
who cares anyway.

boredom is killing me.
i need a relief.

God loves me.
my father loves me.
my mother loves me.
my brothers and sisters loves me.
my true friends loves me.
in short, people i know loves me.
what the?!

what more will i ask for?
sshhh.. gaw.

2005-04-03T10:00:00.000-07:00

IN ANY FORM, YOU SUCK!

is it really hot in here, or is it just vin diesel?
because i saw his new movie, the pacifier
and i swear, you'll be in a comatose.
yeah, WTF?
go and see it.

Last places I've been:
-Greenbelt.
-Graduation of my other best friend.
-Mark's [a highschool friend] place wherein we drank beers or the least.

Lessons learned:
-I'm weak.
-Don't make the most out of it, because if you do, you'll end up regretting it. :)

What's up?
-I love black eyeliner.
-I love my grandmother. For she's always been there when i'm down, without even asking for it. [See how good people treats me well.]
-I love my family. That includes you, you, uhhh not you, you, you, you.
-Im not really into beers. In fact, i hate people who ~~smokes 3 pack of cigarettes in a day and~~ drinks beer until they're bloated. :)
-Enchanted Kingdom this erdasmwq day. *tthhuudd*
-Nothing.

shoot, i ain't too proud to beg. :\

---
is it love that makes my male friends suffer insanity?
whatever, or just so i thought.
julienne and i talked this morning.
whhoot! a melodramatic talk to start the day.

i also hate it when my friends get hurt. that's why cursing people would be a great help.
in any way, people would react.
people would ask.
and so what?
im just protecting my friends to people who do bullshits.
it's not a crime.
it's just a sin.
[crime and sin is not the same, equally related.]
and so, who cares?
i just so HATE it.

what you do now is not to hurt my friends in any manner or in any form.
you don’t know what you’re getting into.

---
the last time tetet and i talked was when he told me "oohh, nagbago ka na lang nung nakilala mo si *****." then as discreetly i would answer him with "oy, nde noh.. mabait lang talaga ako."

that was long before..

so, during jec's graduation, CHRISTOPHER was there. :\

then saturday night while walking along the street of mandaluyong, andre told me "jose, im proud of you. nde ka ganyan before. dati, pag may crush yung crush mo sasabihin mo mas maganda ka dun or magtatanong ka baket siya napili nun. grabe nagbago ka na."

i told him "ganyan talaga, dahil kung nde ka magiging masaya para sakanya ano pa ang kwenta ng pagiging magkaibigan namin?"

2005-04-01T10:59:00.000-08:00

YOU BORE ME WITH YOUR WAR STORIES.

so, you're corny and you really are... CORNY..
you do things, pathetically.

and, why am i so loving the word pathetic?
maybe, that's the way some people live.
ugh, that's social suicide.

EXACTLY.
and many people should agree with me. :\

2005-03-30T10:18:00.000-08:00

KINDER THAN KIND.

I declare that today,

we must thank everyone and anyone.

Therefore ... thank you.

---
a week of not seeing him, is like a lifetime. lol.

seems a bit pathetic.. obviously its really pathetic.

2005-03-28T19:40:00.001-08:00

WITH JETS AND SILVER HAMMERIN.

and it's okay if you have to go away,

just remember the telephone works both ways,

and if I never ever hear it ring,

if nothing else I'll think the bells inside,

have finally found you someone else and that's okay,

cause I'll remember everything you sang

You and I Both - Jason Mraz

is being good a fad now?

haha. i dont know either.

if this is what karma means for me then,

lol. stick to my company.

---

belated happy easter.

2005-03-25T09:17:00.000-08:00

NON-SENSE. (i know)

hay nakoh..
it seems like everyone is carelessly being nicer nowadays.
[everyone is singular, so it should be followed by a singular verb. whatever!]
what's up?
will i still care?
lol. im breathing normally again.

let it be that way. haha. :\
panda eyes.

rajiv. rajiv. rajiv. rajiv. rajiv.
a crush seems to drive me nuts.
it makes me go insane.
WTF?! haha.

so yesterday, roxanne was on the verge of giving up.
when suddenly, her ~~fuckin~~ jez texted her.
roxanne dear, let him be aware of what's happening.
so you won't be like that.
holybeegeezus!
there's no catch, you're just making that stupid catch.
pa-awa ka rin eh noh?

[haha advise advise! ako nga nahihiya ako pag andyan si rajiv. haha.]

im a person ~~who has a self-contentment too.~~

2005-03-24T09:27:00.000-08:00

OMG.

wacky is getting hotter... (what's up?)

(him [the guy at the center] with his brothers.)

...way hotter than before

2005-03-19T03:56:00.000-08:00

MY SOURCE OF TRUE HAPPINESS.

hey people. im pleased to announce that tetet made the nursing cut-off. aquinian eh! haha. ang galing galing.. wala lang.

saturday afternoon in galleria.

haha tet, gift ko na sayo sa pagka-pasok mo sa cut-off...
il shut my being a real writer starting now.

2005-03-16T07:56:00.000-08:00

ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

its when you promise things and mean it.
its when you give your words and do it.
its when you swear things and execute it.
and its when you see to it that in any amount, you should do things rather than say things.

im confident with that.
confident that doing things weighs more than the talking itself.
hello, i speak alot and im proud of that.
to hell with the consequences.
i do things and i wont give care if it would take my time, my pride.
[it also comes in saying ~~sorry.~~]
i guess so..

bahala na lang si batman..

at ito na lang..
i dont despise anyone as much as some people do.
i wont do what my real friends are doing.
that's not me.
im just bothered, who started this again?

and pathetically speaking,
i wont hide and name myself as anonymous.
and i will not do what you, Mr. ROMIR FRANCIS did para lang dumami ang kaaway niyo at kakampi ko.
dumadami sila in a nature's way.. not in my own way.
dig that!
i wont do things that would make myself obvious.
gosh.
now, i so pity you.
yan ang ewww.. maawa ka naman sa sarili mo!

anonymous [the one who wrote in spanish], unbaptized and the recent anonymous - gosh myrrh.. humor me, tickle me!

look ah..
from my chatterbox:
anonymous: lol. had enough? you deserve it butthead! next time you mess with my friend, think a hundred times okay?
unbaptized: eeew! kawawa ka naman. ang dami nang nag-aaway sayo. umayos ka kasi! wakekekekek...
anonymous: ha
anonymous: haha
anonymous: hahaha
anonymous: hahahaha
anonymous: happy summer!

from kate's chatterbox:
Myrrh: Hainku! wag monalang pansinin.. hehe,, lam m bang inaaway n namn ako! ksyo ako dw ung ngttag.. sh*t, pero okay lang.. it goes to show na iniisip nya ako lagi! oh diba?! nadagdagan tuloy FANS ko.. hehehe.. muah

it all goes down to you ROMIR! correct me if im wrong.. 222.126.48.* is your IP address. and in regards to my chatterbox and kate's.. isnt it funny that it comes from that address? THAT's SO PATHETIC.

wag kang paawa myrrh! fans?! sino? ako? fucking NO myrrh! i will never be your fan. dumadami ang kaaway? pano dadami eh iisa lang yan. ano ka may clone? yuck naman.. for christ's sake! dont say bad words..
inaaway ka dyan.. kesyo kesyo mo mukha mo! huling-huli ka na..
if you want proof then tell me.. ill show it to you.. kahit anong name pa ang ilagay mo dyan sa chatterbox.. lumalabas galing din sayo eh.

get a LIFE, man!
you're not just pissing me.. you're pissing yourself the hell out of this..

am i right or i am absolutely RIGHT?

kung gusto mo sayo ang huling halakhak, iyo na noh.. kainin mo pa hanggang gusto mo.. hinding hindi ko siya aagawin.

---
now i should be spending my time for a sensible act..
have a good day everyone..

2005-03-15T04:56:00.000-08:00

IT'S CALLED SCOURING RUSHES BECAUSE IT HAS SILICA DIOXIDE.
and then???

wala lang.
haha kapal ng face nun ah. haha.
"nung nagiintay ako, tumabi sya sakin eh.."
nyek.. haha kelan yun?
wala na ata ako maalala na nangyari yun ah?
hahahaha

lunch with ** & ******.
ayus lang yun!
love hurts.
and love will not be called love when it doesnt hurt.

hmmppfftt.. grabe init kaninang hapon. :)

teppie: don't wori abt it.. hayaan mo cla.. kc pag pinatulan mo.. anung pinagkaiba mo sa kanila?! k lang yan..
wag ka na masad ayt?!?!
ur still a great friend para sa akin.. kahit ano pa man ang sabihin ng iba
hay.. kahit na nde mo inaamin sa sarili mo.. alam ko naman na kahit ideny mo pa ng 1 million times eh..
AFFECTED ka!

[oo nga noh? astig ah.. weh.. i am indeeed.. and i dont have to show it. you just have to feel that i am to see the real me. at anong affected? haha.. since when? :/ ]

oh well.

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2005-03-14T09:55:00.000-08:00

WELCOME TO MY LIFE.

haha.. siguro masaya if yung movie na panonoorin eh nde mo pa napapanood.
pero ayos lang.
i had a great time laughing with the movie "constantine" again.
[constantine, john constantine, you asshole!]
sino kaya yung mga kasama ko?
haha..

jose ang ingay mo.. [oo nga ang ingay ko..]
ok lang yun eh wala naman tao ah.. tsaka napanood ko na yan noh..
kame nde pa eh..
alam ko.. kaya kkwento ko nalang sa inyo..
wag wag wag please..
hahaha..

---
i give up.
wala lang.
gusto ko.. dahil..
TRIP KO.
hahahaha..
tsaka nga pala dahil sabi ni [********] non-sense daw.
eh di wag na lang! :)

---
lets just say, people loves me for being like this.
they want me for im true, pranka, at walang pakialam sa nararamdaman ng iba.
hello.. baket ko pakekealaman ang feelings ng ibang tao kung sarili ko ngang feelings eh nde nila pinapakelaman?
ano toh? sayangan ng oras..
di bale ng wag na lang kesa naman magkasisihan pa.

as i would say, i have my own beliefs.
i have my own principles.
and perhaps, i have my right to have my own rights.

do i have to change?
or better,
do i need to change for a certain/particular person just to accept me?

hell N-O.
and i dont have to.
why would i?
i am ME. and i will be accepted this way
or else you'll not get to be in my LIFE.

you just have to accept what's real underneath with that sarcastic shit.

good morning everyone.

2005-03-13T12:09:00.000-08:00

PIHIKAN?

at kelan naging?
haha..
baka mabait lang talaga ko.

pheww..
at least i can breathe now
regardless of the past events
ewan ko lang ah, pero sa pagkaka-alam ko, mas masaya ako ngayon.

----
"iba ka sakanila nuh"
[iba naman talaga ko noh. and you dont have to be a real woman to be beautiful, you just need to know you're beautiful, to be beautiful]

"its ok jose, you aint losing anything"
[since when did i lose with/to claptraps? haha..]

"usted no esta en terminos buenos con ese hombre alegre?"
[hay tet, obviously we are..]

"todos le adoran"
[definitely. haha]

"ellos estan apenas celosos para usted puede mezclar con otras personas"
[hello.. obvious naman noh.. sociable is what the name JOSE stands for.. haha..]

"ano nangyari sa black mo na bracelet? nawalan ka ng kaibigan?"
[ewan, kasi naputol siya nung.. ah basta. siguro totoo toh.. kaya nag-iisa nalang cya.. haha..]

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2005-03-11T03:11:00.000-08:00

AHORA YO LE ME COMPADEZCO MAS!

yo me puse el cuidado si todos seran enemigos de amigo de su/su.
ademas, usted empezo esto. el derecho?
y tan. el dios solo sabe quien el infierno anonimo es!
y solo El sabe quien le odia mas que hago.
pare preguntar mí que el infierno anonimo es.
porque yo no tengo ninguna idea tambien!
estupido!
digamos apenas, las personas que comentan en su blog no le quieren.

y oye,
diga a sus amigos para cerrar el jode arriba o mas... ako na ang mag-uumpisa ng gulo!
veamos...
yo no he obtenido nada decir ya ahora.

yo todavía le me compadezco, mi (anterior) gemelo!

2005-03-08T03:20:00.000-08:00

YO LE ME COMPADEZCO.

yo le me compadezco para llorar en su ex.
yo le me compadezco para usted no merece mi amistad con usted.
yo le me compadezco para usted no es apenas un asshole pero un dolor en el asno en mi vida.
usted sabe que cuan aguda la lengua es.
y pienso su apropiado que usted merece lo que he dicho.
quien cuida si im no bienvenida ya en su blog?
joda lejos que usted caga a hombre!
y les lo dice a todos sus amigos, "MUERE a RAMERA MUERE!"
yo le dije.. yo no parare
hahahahaha....

y a usted mi querido amigo,
yo no quiero verle ya.
he estado diciendo que a todos sus amigos.
y si usted querria habla conmigo entonces no personalmente.
"naiilang ako.."
y si usted acaba de hablar conmigo acerca de su amigo que lloro a usted sintiendose mo kasalanan ko
im que dice usted...
yo no le lo tengo que explicar a usted.
y si tengo a, usted creera en mi? No, el DERECHO?
por supuesto, usted estara en su ex el lado!
quien es yo a usted ba?
sin embargo, un asshole tambien.
hahahahaha...

---
suficiente de esto.

2005-03-03T03:14:00.000-08:00

WEH, WEH, WEH at isa pang WEH.

i was never your puppet
and you are not my boss.
you're not even my parents nor my only superior.
and so, dont ask me to stop coz i will never stop!
i swear.

mr spongebob is right.
no one is perfect.
and if you're perfect, you're a monster!
did i made sense?
yehey.. i did...
and its an information for you to know that you are!
and hey, tetet and i are laughing when he saw your movie which is a total trash. hahahahaha... *sarcastically laughing*

lastly, im not scared
lalo pa sa mga taong AYAW KONG MAKILALA.
wag ngang mag-feeling.
lalo pa't its irritating kung mag-feeling.
sus. maka-panakot kala naman nakakatakot.
eh to tell you honestly, im not scared with the things you told me.. why naman? may nakakatakot ba? im scared lang naman with the way you look eh. :)

---
and to be so over with this non-sense bullshits...

today, it just so happens that:
- i saw michael when i was on my way to my class.
- we had a practice for our finals in PE.
- teppie laughed when she saw me dancing with a girl. haha..
- teppie and i played 2 players of snake 2 during lunch time. sayang nde namin makuha ang 5 yung big food ng snake. haha.
- na-sense ng guidance counselor namin that my hyperactive mode was on for the past few days.

her: jose, anong problem? baket masyado kang masaya ngayon?
on a coniotic shit
me: mam no mam. actually it started last monday pa eh and maybe its because im getting prettier everyday? what do you think?
her: heh! ano nga?
me: eh kase, remember may kaaway ako? well today, not just one.. but three.. and the fact na magkaka-klase pa sila..
her: masaya ka dahil may kaaway ka?
me: of course, its not everyday i get the chance to have a kaaway..
her: naghahanap ka ng away?
me: no! they are in search for it. and besides, im not scared if may kaaway ako.. hay nakoh naman. ako pa ang aawayin ng mga tao?? mag-isip nga sila for a change.. tsaka masama na pala ang magsabi ng totoo ngayon noh? hehe.. kaya pala maraming pinapatay na totoong manunulat.. eh pano yan? gusto ko lang naman din isulat kung ano nilalaman ng utak ko..
her: oh i see.. but be careful ok?
me: yes mam.. i will.. and dont worry.. after 10 years pa naman ako papatayin ng mga tao eh.. haha.. :)

- p. noval with classmates.
- had our psychology test and got a fucking 34 with over 55 items. tsktsktsk
- i didnt saw raymund today.. pero yesterday.. haha. :/
- ewan na..

---
im not just happy, im OVER-JOYED, OVERWHELMED, lahat na ng over!!

yesterday, we were in jayme's debut somewhere at roxas boulevard. haha. madaming singkit nakakainis. shempre pamilya ng mga intsik eh. haha. yung ibang pics nasa phone eh shempre kelangan ko pa cya i-upload. haha. ito nalang muna..

Photos courtesy of jansen.

in cena's dorm.

cena's dorm part 2.

yuck.. mga walang magawa..

ohmigats!

w/ glecy, eya, and frances. look at my candle.. haha. pang 18 wishes yan eh..

mas maganda yung mga pictures sa phone ko.. haha. :) excited na ko i-post dito.. pero kelangan ko pa ng IR. maghahanap nga ako..

---
done for today.. ill try to post some of our pics tomorrow..

2005-02-28T02:08:00.000-08:00

TIRAHAN PALA DITO AH.

Dear MYRRH!

oh cge. entrada my ass.
nde na ko magpapaka-plastic..
kung ayaw mo tanggapin ang sorry ko wala akong pakialam sayo!
eh di wag.. the hell with you.
ang naalala ko tinanong ko lang naman kung bakit mo ko tinatanong ng ganun..
badtrip ako nun at in-explain ko yun sayo..
kung badtrip ka naman iniintindi kita..
eh kung nagalit ka.. EH DI MAGALIT KA!

dahil napapa-plastikan ako sa post mo..
let's see.. *excited mode: ON!*

Friendship is one of the things I really treasure in my term in this world.
[totoo? eh baket ka nagbibigay ng idea ng away na toh?]
Inevitably, I won't waste precious time for this to be given to a no-no deserving one.
[dont worry, you certainly never became a deserving one to me also!]
Moi keepin' you company doesn't compell you to give back what I've given.
[whatever you say gay man!]
All I need is RESPECT, that's if you know what it means.
[i know what R-E-S-P-E-C-T means.. and to tell you honestly? you dont deserve my respect!]

please be firm with your words the next time you want a fight with me.
i dont like it to be done in/with this non-sense way.
chaka ayaw ko na rin na after mo matauhan, kakausapin mo nalang ako ng biglaan.
remember the last time we fought? grabe nagulat ako kinausap mo nalang ako bigla..
ano magagawa ko? eh sadyang mabait ata ako eh..

a proof that eventhough you hated me before,
eventhough i recieved many hate words from you,
you were never a lost!
dig that into your fucking head!

and to your previous post,
i never acted "as if i know everything"
in fact, i dont know anything.
i admit bobo ako. eh ano ngayon?
and to tell you frankly without hesitations, the reason why im asking a question is because i dont know the answer..
MAGTANONG KA NGA AT SAGUTIN MO SA SARILI MO!
naka-droga ka ba?

at sana pag magsasabi ka ng "i will never do anything to mess our friendship.." next time sa mga friends mo eh..
totohanin mo pwede?
kaya alam mo ng binasa ko yung comment mo before, hehe.. natawa ko..
walang kwenta eh.. paulit-ulit nalang..
kaka-sawa.. kaya tignan mo at alalahanin mo, kelan ko sinabi yun sayo? dba never.. eh kase alam ko im not a perfect person.. besides, NO ONE IS. i know someday, somehow, i will going to mess up with my friends kasi tao ako.. madalas din ako magkamali.. at sa pagkakamaling yun nde mo maiiwasan ang makipag-away dahil nde ka tao pag wala ka pang naka-away.. oh well, na-paranoid ka eh and i had enough of it.

if you are an indeed friend, WALA KANG PAKIALAM SA MOOD SWINGS NG FRIEND MO DAHIL NEVER NAGING REQUIREMENT SA PAGKAKAIBIGAN ANG PAKELAMAN ANG MOOD SWINGS.

and to wrap this fucking up,
in this blog-- im ending our friendship.
sinimulan mo eh di ako tatapos.
you being a friend is all just a BULLSHIT.
magalit ka na kung magalit ka, besides, iisa lang ang parati kong sinasabi and ill let it remind to you again, I WONT CARE!!!
magmama-tigas ako, dahil nag-sorry na ko ayaw mo pa..
enough with you also!

FRIENDSHIP WITH MYRRH... *with a sarcastic smile*

THE END.

THANKS FOR BEING ONE.

phewww... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.....
REMEMBER: YOU ARE NOT A LOST. if i am to you also, hehe, i still wont care..

2005-02-23T05:24:00.000-08:00

I DO.

my fault.
my bad.
i know.
and its eating me up the hell out of it.
sorry. and i mean it.
i do.
dont ever think i changed the way i look towards you.
thats not what i know.
and thats not what will going to happen.
i know, i get mad and sometimes fear you.
its not appropriate but i think its my way of saying i care for you.
of course, i dont want to see you suffering nor in pain.
gahh, who wants?
ive seen enough of it and i think that's enough.
i believe in you.
BE GOOD!

---
hey hey hey.
Alguien me toma gravemente.
Alguien me trata como uno de sus amigos verdaderos.
Y pienso que eso es suficiente para mí decir orgullosamente "hey, tengo todavía el uso aquí en esta tierra, usted sabe?".
alguien verdadero, alguien quién necesidad de doesnt que mí esconder debajo de una máscara
Alguien que me aceptará para que soy.
Dé gracias a dios, ella no es apenas alguien.
Ella es VERDADERA.
Da las gracias para el hombre de ayuda!
Yo le debo mucho.

---
tome el cuidado todos..

2005-02-15T00:46:00.000-08:00

HEART's DAY HAPPENINGS.

hearts get hurt, hearts get wound
hearts can be crushed, hearts can be ruined
hearts can love, hearts can hate
hearts can let go, hearts can injure
hearts insist, hearts resist
hearts can forgive, but never a heart can regret.

it was louie who started to be it, a memorable day.
he swept off my feet by serenading my friend infront of the class.
big flowers, bunch of chocolates, with matching pa-awa script.
gaahh, i told you, if you just did that to me, i'll answer you right away. haha.
not all men can do that and have the guts to say what's really IT in a man's heart.
good thing, im around with the so-called male species who knows how to deal with what i call LIFE.

hanging-out slash sharing my super corny jokes slash with his friend after break time.
wala lang: someone scared the hell out of us. (super scary shit man!)
haha. buti nalang may party yung faculty kaya my break is up to 2pm.
ill tell you more when we see each other again.
oh yeah, the book i wanted you to read is still with me.

and wait wait wait, i didnt said too that its her fault.
it aint gonna be her's.
its just you.
hahahaha.

dinner with my family in the over-rated-in-my-ear market market!
but then thank god its not in the same restaurant we always chow-in.

henrica dear: haha. kalimutan mo na yung nangyari pwede? maraming lalake dyan. hahanap tayo! hahaha..

baket ba? eh masaya lang naman ako...

coz for me, this is what real wonderful day of hearts really means!

---
remember: i stopped saying shits on you! (eventhough i dont). but still, you should stop it also. :)
haha..

---
and guess what the hell didnt made my day? seeing the people i just dont like to see. i know its bullshit. pero mas bullshit ang nag-ffeeling heartthrob!
leche. NAKAKAIRITA KA!

---
take care and good day, everyone...

2005-02-10T07:26:00.000-08:00

STRANGE THINGS ARE OCCURRING.

You know what's not fair? It's when you're thinking about someone and want to let them know but "aren't supposed to" because of some "rule" that dictates "appropriate behavior" after someone "acts strangely" again.

I'm learning that there's a difference between "missing someone" and "pining for them". So, while it's all great and good to get swept up in a whirlwind romance, it makes things far too complicated.

---
heard mass for ash wednesday with tetet.

---
M&M's. Melts in your mouth, not in your hands.
i told you this na eh and you know i did because im just being a friend.

you're an angel in disguise.
look how far he change when he met you.
he doesnt smoke anymore. (he sometimes do pala ah. haha.)
he doesnt drink anymore. (social drinking pa!)
sinungaling na lalake yan! haha.
social ba yung 5 na ng umaga umiinom pa? hahahahaha..
eh yung ayaw magpapigil mag yosi? sometimes pa ba yun?
hahaha.

you take care of him.
if i see him again with an emotional wound, im going to kill you.
i swear, i will.
he told me he'll do something for you this valentine's day.
(spills!!)
whoo...

and to you dear friend, sorry! maski nde mo toh mabasa sorry pa rin. nde naman lahat nasabi ko eh.. may 90 percent pa naman na natitira. haha. :)

by the way, you're getting HOT!
ewww, shit man! you are HOT!!

haha, you're always in my prayers.
i will always be here for you.
don't give a shit mawala man ang ibang tao.
naman! sino ba naman sila diba?

and remember: we're doing things to feel a satisfaction in ourselves, and not to be praised by anyone!

---
gah, this is killing me.
hearsays are shit.
it really does.

fuck to you who made my life miserable.
because of you i can't look straight into his eyes.
wait lang.. eh ano ngayon?
i dont know. maybe its because most of his friends are also my friends.
shit man!
sana hindi na siya magtanong ulit. hahaha..

thanks dony. haha. buti nalang matalino ka, dahil kung hindi. nakuh! baka now palang you're visiting me na on my death bed. gaahhh!!

---
don't make me feel you are important!
you did it to him, and guess what?
i'm gonna do it to you also.
you know how it saddens me when i see my friends in pain.
just wait, you silly shit!

---

happy hearts day, everyone.

2005-02-02T03:08:00.000-08:00

a STUPID CHAIN.

it comes in different style.
in a different manner.
in a different fashion.
in a different approach.
in any way you want it.

its still a stupid chain.

yes it is.
it was just made to make a money out of it.
its just a metal plated with gold or silver or in any color the maker wants it to be.

you wont call this chain a chain anymore if you put a meaning into it.

it could be a sign of friendship.
or maybe a token.

now, the chain is now your symbol of whatsoever. ( i guess so..)

it won't be stupid if no one would break it into pieces.
and if no one would eradicate the essence of the one wearing it.

mine is fragile, if you ask me.
and if it broke into pieces, then i cant pick it.

am i right? .... or .... am i wrong?

----
now im thinking if these people is putting me down or just playing tricks on me.
first is myrrh.
(hey, thanks for understanding. its not you i swear. and i wil tell you naman if its you. naalala mo yung kantang rainbow na sinabi ko for you? totoo yun!)
then erica.
(pano ka naman nadamay dito?)
lately this afternoon, kate texted me.
(im telling you.. if you wont believe in me, then dont!)
and just now, its ralph.
(ikaw din! bahala ka sa buhay mo..)

KUNG AYAW NYO MANIWALA, EH DI WAG. HINDING HINDI KO KAYO PIPILITIN NOH.

at isa pa, friendship will never be called a friendship when you don't trust.

pinag-tutulungan nyo ba ko o nang-gagago lang kayo?
or siguro may kasalanan kayo saken kaya parang armalite kayo na sabay-sabay kung mag-react. (armalite eh noh?)

pwes, kung totoo nde ako natutuwa.

you're not only my friends.
and not all in this blog pertains just to the four of you.
it can be to everybody!
it can be to me, myself!
it can be to our dog.
or to my high school classmate.

nde naman siguro masama maglabas ng galit dito noh?

im not reasoning out the previous entry shit.
im just doing what i know is correct.
and its in my previous profile in friendster thing that being my friend entails a lot of exertion.
if you can't take my attitudes, then go find another JOSE..

it wont be my lost.
and its not gonna be a lost.

it doesnt matter.
and it wont matter.

that's what i will always know, as far as I am is the concern.

take care everyone.

2005-01-29T08:39:00.000-08:00

VISITING MY ALMA MATER (again), MALL HOPPING, BOY HUNTING, WATCHING SCQ BACKSTAGE, SEEING MY LONG-TIME CRUSH, and the two of YOU.

haha, visiting my high school alma mater for the field demo is a blast. its the school's 40th anniversary and im glad i dont have any regrets in waking up at 6:30 in the morning for it. :) field demo is one of the activities in school that shouldn't be missed watching. whhoo, i miss dancing in front of the parents, the outsiders, the teachers, the nuns, the administration, and to our schoolmates. it happened in less than an hour or so but i know the preparation of it is not easy. lets look, it takes the student to dance in a never-ending rehearsals, enduring the heat of the sun if the schedule of practice is in the afternoon, the boredom, the screams and shouts of the teacher and the people around you. yes its corny but it feels good in the end. looking back at the senior's dance last year, why did they ask us to dance it again? or why did they seek one of my classmates to teach the teachers our dance for the teacher's day? haha, maybe we are so great and made a remarkable impression. right batchmates? *grins* that our batch cant be compared to anyone and just simply the best. enough..

---
galleria with jay, anthony, and babs to eat lunch. and megastrip without babs. he has to attend an important(?) thing which is so rude. haha.

---
SCQ! nyeh. i was forced (overrated line) to watch. (NOTE: before you read this entire shit, just please leave your bullshits somewhere. i dont want to hear(?) you nor getting into your mind the "Yuck ang jologs naman nito nagpunta ng scq" shit. besides, this is mine! and i'll write here the things i want to write and you cant stop me from writing it.) :\ back into my ka-cornihan, i got excited too because we'll get there free and in the backstage (yes! with the privilege of seeing the artistas and have some signs and pictures and full time screaming faggots that's so irritating) which you can see people around screaming and complete with banners and balloons saying "i love you (insert the questor's name)!!! you'll win" shit. i saw robby carmona, marc acueza, aj dee(check my spelling.), piolo pascual, bea alonzo, the first batch of fab 5, carlos agassi, diether ocampo, kristine hermosa, many more, and of course, the second batch of fab 5. yah call me whatever and i wont care. i was star-strucked but guess how i became excited? ok, someone screamed "ayan na si jericho". then i replied, "WHAT??? grabe makikita ko na yung long-time crush ko..shit!!" hay.. you made my day honey. too bad, i need to leave and i'll stay if you wanted me to. sad thing is, you have work and i get jealous whenever other girls are screaming your name so i left. (NYEH!!!!) whatever it is, he is my crush and only kim-~~bies~~ knows from the start that i crush jericho. harhar. (ngayon alam mo na! may pake ka?)

yehey! jay told me he'll going to invite me with a backstage access in the next cosmopolitan's 100 bachelors on september! and he promised me he'll going to give me a picture of jericho from his office. haha. excited na ko..

---
i wont believe in you anymore. you're just making excuses and it sucks! its obvious if you didnt know. ay nga pala, you wont know. coz i guess you're such a great shit. its awfully obvious! im miserable that you just dont care, do you?

---
stop asking me about how it was, how it is. not even a bit about it. it keeps on reminding me bullshit things and worrying about it is killing me. things are getting fine now. so stop the shit. i dont want to see you in a long face again. :) of course, i dont breathe seeing my (READ!)best friends in all the world setting apart. (oy, nga pala may kasalanan ka pa sakin ah? haha. :p)

it would be a fool to let you go. (you know what i mean..)

2005-01-17T06:37:00.000-08:00

IN THIS LIFE.

life goes around.
life has many circumstances.
life is a blast of mysteries.
life is whatever.
and it is, certainly.
in any reason
in any time.
and in any day.
it will go round and round.
even without your permission.
and im thankful for it is moving like that.
that's just it.
whehe..

okay, so after our intro to medtech and filipino prelims, stayed in school until 2pm. wala lang.
i overheard someone saying "gusto ko yung ugali ni jose!" hahaha. as far as you dont know, my ears are still clapping up to now with what you said. crush nga kita before eh. pero singkit ka eh im trying to avoid to have a crush with singkits na nga eh. sorry ka. haha. :)

i'll be the one who will replace the string for my brother's guitar.
not unless there will be someone who has some pity and will help me.
pero wait lang, its not my fault ah? (oo noh. naalala ko nakkpag-daldalan ako kay migs nun eh)
pero sige pag nagka-pera ko angelo panget ka. bibilhan na kita. :)
kasi eh noh, alam mo naman nag-iipon ako para sa house and lot ko tapos iisipin ko pa yang string mo.

angelo (my brother) : hoy! sabihan mo nga sa magaling mong kaibigan yung string ng gitara ko. baka gusto nila atang paabutin ng isang taon yun ah?
me : paki-ulit nga yun? anong hoy ka dyan! i have a name and its jose. tsaka eh di ikaw ang magsabi. string mo yun eh.
angelo : eh mga kaibigan mo yung nag-sira ng string ko eh.
me : ano ngayon? eh dba tinawagan mo na sila nung christmas at ano sabi? dba OO.
angelo : oo nga eh ano na ngayon. january na!
me: hay nakoh! nde ko nga maintindihan eh. kung tawagan mo na lang sila ulit noh baka magkaintindihan pa kayo. tinatamad ako makipag-usap ngayon. bahala ka sa buhay mo.
(...at may gana pa ko magalit nyan.)

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picture picture. (this afternoon)

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hey, being your friend, i can say, is one of the best things that happened to me next to being alive. yes it is! we've been through a lot of ups and downs and i dont regret that i get to experience it with you. i know i don't have the right to get mad or to get jealous or to feel whatever not right because its not appropriate and besides, im just a friend. i wont base this feeling in any angle i can see. not on how long we talk, not on how often we talk, nor how many times we do text each other. i've learned a lot from you. i am what i am because you've helped me grown into something i wont regret for the rest of my life. dont get me wrong, im doing things i know for myself will make you happy. but im not blowing my own horn for it and you know that. let's just say, i'm gonna do everything for you, everything i dont normally do, things which i wont do to anyone. why? coz you're my friend. you know that! your worth the things im doing. every time i hear your name i feel this misery and no one can help me except you. just to hear your voice , just to see you smiling, just to let you know that i'm always here for you puts me in a total bliss. im leaving you to them. it sucks but it will be alright. its rude but its true. just take care of yourself. im missing you.. terribly.

i will always be here for you no matter what happens.. ( ü you know my number)

and to the other people,
this i tell you.
treasure all those things you have now and not those things you will have.
coz the moment the things you have now is lost, you're going to realize its worth when it's already gone.
whatever man!
did i make some fucking sense?

i'll study now.

2005-01-10T02:49:00.000-08:00

JOYRIDE. THE WEEK THAT WAS.
TET, sino nga pala yung basted? :)

it was the monday of last week when my forty winks had disturbed my life.
haha. but then i wont regret it.
why will i regret it when it is not always i can get to hang-out with my far-away friends.

monday. my class will start at 8.
the night of sunday. from kamuning we headed straight to baywalk with jeekho, their tito mark, gelo, bryan, and jen. it was fun. yeah! we're walking while we're listening to the freaky bands there, then to blue wave in pasay's starbucks. and to emjie's house in paranaque. pheww.. layo! got home at around 2:00 in the morning. and i have to get up by 4:30.

tuesday. my PE class starts at 7.
the night of monday. i went to their house in kamuning. poooff!! jeekho asked me if i wanted to go with them again. i said why not? so baywalk, pasay, paranaque, then pasig again! got home at 2:30 and i have to be awake by 4am. haha. saw demon after PE. (hey tet, you know who he is!) shit man! lunch in sm manila with myrrh.

wednesday. class starts at 8.
hay ewan. aarrrgghh. wake up time: 4:30.

thursday. class starts at 10:30.
but the hell with my PE. i have to go to school by 7 so that we can able to practice our freakin' practicals in social dancing.

friday. class starts at 7.
nothing unusual. dismissed by 11. lunch with joseph and his classmates. saw tetet and the three of us ended up laughing very hard. 3 in the afternoon when i got home. bonded with dad at galleria and watched ocean's twelve. and starbuck's tazo tea. yeah!!!

saturday. class starts at 9.
math time when glecy texted me, "jose namiss na kita, antagal na natin nde nag-talk.." haha. napa-iyak ako.. then lunch with john and henrica. and that afternoon, we practiced for our PE shit. henrica taught me how to drive and reverse. hahaha!! sa susunod, iikot na tayo ng ust! haha. humanda ka!!

this is driving me insane and i dont know why. probably, for the fact that im terribly missing my prince charming. (and who the hell he is?) FIGURE IT OUT!! haha. :) i dont even know who he is. ohmigats! then sterotype in one of my friends vocabulary means usual. yeah! that's so fuuny

ok... so,

sino nga uli yung na-basted? hahahahaha... ang yabang kasi ng itsura. pangit naman. basted tuloy. yeah! coz ur a total freak, dear! and that's what you can get for being a bastard shit.

im done!!

2005-01-04T05:59:00.000-08:00

FREAKIN LIES, DEVASTATED, TIRED, and FIGHTIN' BACK WITH THE DEMON.

there are certain things that needs to be taken away from your memory.
memories that drains your certainty.
things that draws away even your identity.
im in pain.
and im sure of that.
i heard something about you.
but you could just imagine how my heart felt when i heard it.
it was like pinning needles into it.
and was a little thwarted to find myself hiding from you.
hiding from you the things that should be existing in reality.
im up for the challenge!!!
all those things are happening to crash into me at the same time.
why? ~~coz i said so!~~
hopefully i will be over with this phase soon.
please help me.. anyone?

2004-12-28T17:08:00.000-08:00

POLICARPIO STREET, SHIT BUT USEFUL TALKS, and BONDING SESSIONS.

yesterday, when i was about to get up from my sleep, i told myself "ah shit, wala nanaman magagawa dito sa bahay. kelangan kong umalis. haha.." so i called tetet, i asked him if i can go to their house but the hell with going home at friggin 5 in the morning from a bar. sana pala nde na ko nagpa-alam. pumunta nalang ako dyan.. at least, wala na cyang magagawa. parati namang ganun ah? first time kong magpaalam. haha. aarrrgghh, of course he's tired! so, forgiven.. hahaha! then i called my other friend, "hoy! kelangan kong umalis ngayon! pucha nakaka-pagod nang magpaka-gago dito sa bahay noh.. aalis ba tayo?" then he answered, "oo. ikaw na nga lang hinihintay ko eh. ano sasama ka?" well of course im so touched, for the fact that someone is waiting for me. :evil laugh:

and now i know that in his vocabulary, 5 minutes is the same as one hour. at ang 1:00 eh 3:00 kay nicko. hahahaha! joke lang. hayy..

ramon called me on our way to the badminton center. then when the time jasper carlo and i decided to walk going to the center dahil sa kadayaan nila nicko with his ate, mark, and james,

aba nagiinarte nanaman tong carlo na toh..

him: alam nyo ba dinaya kame ni villaga! (did i spelled that right?) eh di sana kame panalo sa intrams nun!
me: hay.. ayan nanaman. kinuwento na yan ni jeco eh. nde na dapat inaalala yan eh.
him: oo noh! dinaya kame..sinumbong nga namin siya kay mengullo eh pero wala rin nangyari.
me: oh seee. walang nangyare. sus! nde nyo na nga dapat ginawa yun eh kase alam nyo sa sarili nyo na you fought right. you fought fair and square. and that's good enough. only God knows the truth. hayaan mo cya..
jasper: oo nga! tsaka nde naman kayo malakas kay mengullo eh. nde naman kayo tulad ng batch namin na pag gusto namin ang isang bagay pipilitin hanggang sa makuha lang yun..
me: ah basta. yun na yun. lumaban kayo ng patas. sapat na yun.. for me kayo ang panalo..

oh yun, after wasting our time playing. we ate at [wait lang! james ano ba tawag dun?] ah basta, something na eatery. haha. at last, i ate tapsilog again. naman, when was the last time i ate that scrumptious dish ba? tell me!!

then on our way home, mark told me "ayan yung policarpio oh." i hurriedly answered him, "oh?? nde nga.. halika punta tayo..wala nang maraming tanong.." haha, it was my first time going there. kung nuon nakikita ko lang cya sa tv. ngayon in reality na! haha. :) but he told me na last year's design was better than this year. sabi ko, "hay, i dont give a damn. maganda pa rin noh.." wow ako ng wow nun eh noh. parang timang. (eh baket nde ba?)

it may not be the best night, but i can say bonding with them and having a nice laugh with them.. was so great! simple.. pero masaya! oh ano ka?

you cant always get what you want. be thankful for the things you have...

2004-12-23T14:44:00.000-08:00

17 MORE HOURS TILL CHRISTMAS NIGHTMARES.

its 7 in the morning.
and if you will ask me what could i have been possibly doing with this wicked time of the 24th..
i dont even know
i know i should be sleeping.
i know i should be resting.
to keep me awake on the dawn of 25th.
but then,
haha, you'll figure out the answer later.

glorietta with tetet together with his family last wednesday. supposedly we'll be going to galleria to catch a movie that time but his mom forced us to go with them. no regrets. i had a wonderful time. i surely had. :) then the movie harold & kumar wasnt available at g4 so we decided to stroll and afterwards, boy oh boy.. boyhunting! that's always a bonding time for us. sayang nde natuloy yung ratings natin.. haha.

then yesterday, i dont know if that is a day! things are going ~~nice~~ unwell. yah.. super unwell! will you be happy if you will hear something like he doesnt want to see you anymore even your friends for an immature reason? what a friend!! i want to explain more but id rather be quiet than bragging about it... its useless.

and today.. i decided not to attend the last simbang gabi.
i was talking to my friend last night and explained that ive been doing those things for a reason.
and if that reason will turn me into being an upset then im sorry.
im crying last night for the fact that i dont want this shit to happen.
if it is bound to happen, then ill let it happen.
but i tell you, i am sad and mad with it.
that's it.

i was not born yesterday, you know?
i know how to get hurt.
grr.. it was like 2 days of having nightmares.

anyways, Merry Christmas everyone....

2004-12-20T06:39:00.000-08:00

PRE-CHRISTMAS HEARSAYS.
(..if this is what hearsay means)

okay, so last saturday i was so depressed for not being able to attend the third day for the simbang gabi.

then..
supposedly my bestfriend tetet, twin kate and me will go to galleria to watch a movie.
but tetet has a party to attend to.
that's why galleria ended up only with the person im most proud of, my twin. i had fun. definitely FUN! talking to her is so much fun. and i would not know what stupidity that fucking life-threatening person has in mind for her because of this. yah, damn you! haha.

saw joyce. only joyce!!

then last sunday, heard mass with my dad. attended the simbang gabi that morning and the 6:30pm mass in Christ the King Church. that means, even if its not counted at least for myself i compensated the mass i have not attended. wala lang. feeling ko ang banal-banal ko nung sunday. :)

today, monday..

visited mom at her office. then raided greenhills until 10 in the evening. :)
and then we ate at Goodies and Sweets..

me: ay nakoh. ngayon nagsisisi ako dahil sayo..baket nde mo naman kasi ako ginising nun?
my mom: eh nde na ko naka-gising eh tsaka pagod na ko eh..
me: ano ba yan.. sayang naman talaga. may wish pa naman ako na gusto ko mangyari ngayon pasko.. baka magalit sakin si god nyan tsaka baka nde mangyari yung wish ko.. nakakainis ka naman..
my mom: ano ka ba? paniniwala lang yan ng mga matatanda.. tsaka anong magagalit eh alam naman nya na maganda yung intensyon mo..
me: nde.. kasi gusto ko sana i-complete toh para makapag-wish ako ng matino ngayon. yung bang maging sila ulit ni kate at si ian tsaka world peace na rin...
my mom: jose..ang corny mo! anong world peace ka dyan??
me: wala..masama ba? haha.

and as i always say.. nakakainis na yang butterscotch bar nila.. ang sarap.. hehe..

there are some things better left unsaid. oo nga naman..
so, the rest was history then..

St. Thomas of Aquinas, (sabay lagay yung kamay sa dibdib..) pray for us..

2004-12-15T05:39:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSE.

probably the most words i got from my dear friends.
except for the "ahh shit, hassle araw na toh.." said by the people who had a fucking tests in i dont know subjects.

in the last 365 days of my life,
many things happened
i failed
i cried
i rejoiced
i loved
everything a human does
and still im here
standing still
because of the people i know that inspired me to be the same.
who cares?
i do and i dont care on what you will say man!

as i close the book of my being sixteen,
i know i have to thank all of you people who stayed beside me till the very end of it.
it may not be the way i wanted it to be
but by just being there
is enough for me to say,
"im grateful to have you.."
i mean, all of you.
your presence matters to me.
it really does.

To my FAMILY,
well mom and dad to be specific,
you gave us everything we want
you're working hard to give what we wish for
super-duper thank you for everything.
i know im bad,
and you can't do anything bad about it.
still im your kid right?

To those listed as IMPORTANT PERSONS.

Kate - life may be rough for us but still we'll always be the twins that people will be envious about. i dont care about the present, i care about your presence. i love you and i will always be here for you. i will care for you no matter what happens. i love you twin. :)

Tetet, Jasper, Brian, Joyce - my beloved bestfriends. we've been through a lot back in high school and i will treasure every moment of it. being in high school was great not because of everything but because of you. naman, we may not see each other often but still we do care for each other. anyways, i will always be here for you too bri. :)

Group 1 Taghirap (Rhea, JR, Nikki, Meech, Nicole, Maureen, TEPPIE) - hay.. prove them wrong everyone. we will stand still. we'll make it in the prelims.

My Lady, Honey, Sweety, Baby, Boyfriend (Erica, John, JR, Vince, Louie) - kayong mga puta kayo. maski anong mangyari, aasarin ko kayo. haha. :) that's what having Jose as a friend is all about.

Beauty Buddy - thanks for the trust you're giving to me. i love you. :)

St. Hyacinth People (Jacinto Residents) - we may be separated with the schools we're studying in but having each and everyone of you was the best days of my senior year. :) i miss our friday open-forums, the parties, the inumans, the iyakans, and our baguio days, the cakes during birthdays. and especially the day when i turned sixteen. the flowers are always kept in my heart. :) you made me weak in my knees that day. nye.. i'm a certified resident of JACINTO. always will be.

Everyone - my life will never be as sweet as this without all of you.

God - if not because of you, i wouldnt be here. thanks for everything.

just turned officially as a SEVENTEEN years old human.
can somebody teach me how to sneeze on a tissue?
i still dont know how to. :)

2004-12-09T01:59:00.000-08:00

I CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU.

without my friends man.
who do you think is?

just when i thought my day will be absolutely a total bleak,
certain people made my week.
yah they did.
someone missed me.
someone liked me because of my attitudes.
and the list goes on.
im speechless man.

"ulol gago. maski talo kayo magaling ka pa rin."
isnt that sweet? it works for me though.
that's what being friends is all about.
will appreciate even the smallest things you're doing.
the effort you're exerting.
it bothers me.
do i have friends like them?
ANSWER ME..

ate lunch with tetet, joma, me anne, and kim.
even if i have to suffer in the heat of the sun walking all the way to espana and eating in bed.
though the whole eating time wasnt nice,
i had a splendid time being with all of you. :)
and tetet was right, mas mabait si joma kesa kay blah-blah.

mike tizon is cute. lalo na si bermuds. haha.
my friend andoy from engineering showed his great moves to his opponents from the nursing team. haha. galeng!!!
super galeng!!

david: baket ganyan ka-sad ang face mo ngayon?
me: eh may sipon ako eh..
david: aww.. wawa ka naman.
me: thanks ah!

damn to this cough and sneeze i got from hell.
im not behaving normally because of you.
and people thinks im not okay because of you.
please LEAVE me now!
im getting colds because of you.
you're getting into my nerves man!
i know its bullshit but then.
im in pain because of you.

nice people always makes my day.

anyhoo,
hey you!
you made my day too.. :)

yes you did.

2004-12-01T22:25:00.000-08:00

13 more days til my birthday.
my friend will cook me a food called "poached chicken".
my mom promised me to buy me an iPOD.
what more to ask for?
haha. :)
i dont know either.

my classmate: oy! 16 days na lang ah. wala ka pa rin boyfriend?
me: oo nga eh. sabi ko hanapan mo na ko eh.
my classmate: mahirap maghanap noh. hahanapan ko muna sarili ko.
me: wag na. unahin mo muna ko.

haha. i dont know. if i have to scrutinize things and linger for a reward with the things im doing.
its nonsense man.
im fine with it and i dont have to expect more than anything from it.
yikes! im good.
yeah im good.
and you better be too.

i miss my bestfriend brian.
i really do.
kalokohan, katarantaduhan, gaguhan, seryoso-ko mood, mood swings.
ay shet!
im proud of you dude.
i used to tell him "oh yeah, il visit you in your school if i have time"
but then, i have many of those.
sshh. sorry bri.
i swear if i have long free time il visit you.
dammit!
hahaha.
and if i have my own car, ill bring you home man.
but without your fucking ugly girlfriend.

and also you, tetet.
you promised me yesterday you'll bring me home everyday
with your tanginang ford lynx car.
hehe. ill bring you home too.

and joyce,
i miss you too.
we'll gonna see each other soon when my hectic schedule allows me.
haha.

kate - im upset with u again and figure out why.
karen - hey you, kate told me you want pizza badly. ill make you libre i swear if i see you.
myrrh - thanks for holding on you gay man!
andre, nicko, jasper - i miss you so much.
erica, cecille, james - tangina! ill see you soon.
haha.

dont get me wrong people, i miss all of you seriously-slash-badly. :)
putang ulan toh. pag nakita kita.. sasapakin kita!!

2004-11-23T06:32:00.000-08:00

If you're reading this, then good.
If you're not, then its still good for me. :)
for me...

I wont blame you if you're mad at me though.
Look, I had a problem last night and people didnt even cared to be a friend.
I was like waiting for them to know im having a problem but no one would return my call and so I was very devastated.
Or should I say IM SO UPSET!
I slept with an awful feeling.
I cried without them knowing why.
I swear I cried.
Im getting a sneeze last night but I told myself I should'nt get one coz I know you'll gonna get mad at me again for not knowing how to sneeze on a tissue.
And then, I have to wake up early coz i have to attend my PE classes at 7am and then on my way there I saw my high school classmate.
He got angry with me and told me im doing bad things na daw. I had to convince him i will never do it again infront of Burger King. (haha.)
After my PE classes, im vacant for about freaking five hours and a half doing nothing.
I have a long quiz in math which is ok but then when I took my botany quiz.
Gawd, I was like "Where in the hell will I get the answers to write on this fucking paper?"
in short, I WAS SO STRESSED.
Then you saw me, you asked me who I was waiting for.
I answered, "Pasko..pero nde joke lang. Kakalabas ko lang din eh."
Im having an headache kanina.
I felt so damned.
I felt so down.
I shouldn't be saying this but to have some contentment, I did.
Peace of mind should I say.
I know you're mad at me.
Dont hide it.
IM VERY SORRY. :)

2004-11-19T23:54:00.003-08:00

each one of us are enrolled in a school full time called "Life."
although it may seem tough at times,
it always grant us to have the shot to learn lessons.
we may think some of the lessons are not important
and choose to ignore them,
or we may like the lessons and learn from them.
the choice is ours.
our decisions will determine our future,
a success or a failure.

im living in a fast-paced world,
full of complexities,
full of sabotages,
yet
i could not still fathom the mystery of life.
many say "no one could live in a solitary life"
indeed,
one has to find a pair to love with, to cry with, to live with.

im living in a fairly sheltered life for 16 years
and counting here on earth.
and still...
still incomplete.
been good.
been desperate.
did everything. (not at all though..)
wished like hell.
dreamt for something romantic.
betrayed.
tragically been hurt.
fell deeply inlove with someone.
hurted emotionally and physically.

in a dramatic mood

love doesnt need to have a reason... :)
it doesnt need to research on.
yeah. probably though! :)

2004-11-18T07:15:00.000-08:00

Dear Prince Charming,

You're breathtaking.

I won't let another day pass without telling you that.
My emotions have grown too tough for me to hold on any longer.
I cannot even bear in mind this passionate emotion towards anyone.
I haven't loved anyone this much.

In every crowd, I look for your face, your personality, YOU.
My eyes are drawn to your eyes, sweet eyes like bees to honey.
Nothing could've been sweeter than that.

But how could I have noticed only now?
I've never been brought to my knees this way before.
I want to touch your face, just to know if you're real.
I want to know you. I just want to know you.
My entire lifetime have been a charade.
I always long for love.
The love that will truly love me.
I must say YOU are everything I always ought having.

I will live the facade I have built even before till you come into my reality.
I dont care if time will take me to see, know, and meet you..
Because if that will bring me a love destined from above, who will resist?

If god wouldn't allow us my love for you a chance here on earth,
I will wait for you in heaven.

Just be the perfect prince-charming.
I dont care anymore about everything else.

Astonished by all that you are,

I remain...

2004-11-15T13:12:00.000-08:00

COMPLETE...
days like this would never happen again. (i think so..)
thanks to eldon's birthday. (kuno..haha. sa wednesday pa birthday nya eh..)
monday.
just a regular day.
sleep. eat. wake up. watch tv. surf the web. talk on the phone. text. name it..
come that night...
hah!
my dad decided to have eldon's birthday celebration today...

kala ko nga market market nananaman eh.
nakaka-sawa na talaga. swear!
3 straight days.. shrimp na kinakain ko..
wag na sanang dagdagan diba??
hahaha.. nag-sawa na ko pumunta sa market market.
pati yung mall pinag-sawaan ko na rin.
hahahhaa...
ano bang meron dyan kase....
pati si ate elita nagsawa na sa market market...
aba..mas lalo na ko noh..
hahahaha...
dyan nalang tayo parati nag-ddinner..hahaahaha..

buti nalang...naisipan nilang sa shang nalang...hahahaha...
madami pang gwapo!!

kuya gio is there
lola is present there.
the whole people in the barangay is present.
and so.. what will you expect from us?

never-ending laughs..
boundless chit-chats..
unlimited heart to heart talk. (shempre not with all. just with my sisters...)
what's the result?
an incredible, happy-dining at CPK.
we ate pizza's, pasta's, salads, refillable raspberry ice tea (yummy!!), and that free mozzarella cheese na pinapapak namin ni ate monica..
that event will never be complete without the picture taking in phones and in our digital camera.
it runs in the family to be a picture-addict. hahahaha....
we'll gonna eat ice cream sana because of being bitin with those foods we ordered pero CPK ata doesnt offer ice cream. so we have to leave the place and go somewhere else..eh 9:30 na nun..and the guard doesnt allow us na to enter that fuckin' mall kaya we decided to go to starbucks. haha.
nakaka-inis. sayang yung ice cream.. dreyer's pa naman yun...
i ordered rhumba frappucino but only the tall one though coz i have classes at 7. pag nde ako nakatulog.. patay na!
grabe yun. we're like 10. that means 10 coffees in one receipt. haha.
wala lang. :)

hay... having been scolded by my mom that afternoon, talked to kate about something nonsense, called people with nothing really to talked about, talking to people with nothing really to talked about.. it made my day.

things like this day will surely make my day.
make me happy and it will surely make my day.

haha. ate nicki.. i will miss you. umuwi ka dito sa sunday hayop ka! kelangan mag-internalize ka dyan.. haha. :) i will pray for you sa december board exam mo. haha. kaya yan! barza pa.. whahaha.. :) nyeh.. eh pwede naman kita puntahan dyan pag may time ako diba? makati lang yan..malapit yan sa school...minsan punta ka ng school mo ha tapos lintik ka i-text mo ko..wag kang gaga. hahahah.. :)

mwah. mwah. mwah....

2004-11-11T04:16:00.000-08:00

haha. well just thought of writing all of those crazy things that keeps on bothering me.
those bullshit things that keeps on bothering me.
that keeps on bothering me.
its always anyways...
it does!
and now im confessing.

first, i wanna die. i agreed to be good. i agreed to be kind to others. and now when everyone seems to be good to me too, i want to end it. coz i felt something quite not right. what if, what if, what if, and so many what if's. (yun na yun!)

second, maybe life will be happier for me if i accepted that deal between my father and i we once agreed when i was in high school. that if ever i can get that damn grades needed for ucla, or in nyu, or in any universities abroad..he will let my fly alone. and he will let me live alone. mas masaya. (oh well, nakuha ko yung mga grades na yun! dahil pinaghirapan ko yun..)

third, i want something good to happen BUT I DONT WANT TO coz everytime im thinking on the things i did before...life will be a mess for everyone. swear.

i dont know...probably, im afraid doing the same mistakes again.
yes, ive got a lot of great friends. they are always there for me in times of INDEED fucking troubles.
but man, i need happiness.
ah..i need something amazing! simply amazing...
siguro nga mas matutuwa ako lalo pag tinangap ko yung deal namin ng dad ko noh?
ano sa tingin mo?
tangek ko kasi eh..i didnt put that damn scholarship in my priorities.
that's the only thing i need to study there.
far..
far from stupidities i always do.
from the things im doing.
from the things that always bother me.

eh pano kaya yun? ang hirap maghanap noh.
sayang...
sobrang sayang..

ewan ba.
tama ba toh?
oh nagdadrama lang ako?
punyeta ka!
kung nagdadrama ako nde ako magsusulat ng ganito.
mag-iinarte ako mag-isa noh....

2004-11-08T23:01:00.000-08:00

hah! its not my fault reading his diary.
(that's why its an online diary.. stupid!)
it made me cry.
(nakakahiya..nasa library pa naman ako.)
it gave me goosebumps.
for the reason of i dont know why.
sshh..im affected. (period!)
hehe. sorry john. haha. nde ko sinasadya.

and it makes me wonder that what am i doing was wrong.
why am i so affected with all of this?
haha.
in time, you'll gonna realize that what am i doing was so right.
i want everybody to be happy.
i want them to enjoy what damn life has.
ahhh...i guess though.
masaya na ko pag masaya ang tao.

and so.. i'll be waiting...... :)

2004-11-08T10:02:00.000-08:00

sometimes letting go is the only way to move forward.
haha.
kay clark kent kaya yan.
sinabi nya yan sa smallville.
hahaha. gwapo talaga ni tom welling.
shet.

i became passionate with his extreme humility.
hay nakoh! nde rin. haha. joke lang. :)
isang sentence na nde ko makalimutan. (wha'd you care?)
buti nalang there are still remaining type of persons na benevolent.
harhar. naaapektuhan na ko ng kagalingan ng english teacher ko! haha.

erica: jose..answer me!
jose: go shoot!
erica: what will you choose? the perfect guy who is not so gwapo or the imperfect guy who is gwapo?
jose: nyeh! ano meron?
erica: basta..answer me.
jose: shempre. the imperfect guy who is gwapo. coz his imperfections makes it almost perfect na to me eh. so....
erica: awww.. sobrang lucky naman nung guy na magiging boyfriend mo..you're so sweet...
jose: haha really? baket?
erica: wala lang. do you really want to have a boyfriend?
jose: malamang naman. pero im willing to wait noh! sus!
erica: tama yan.
jose: baket mo natanong? hahanapan mo ko?
erica: i dont know any gay guys kasi eh.
jose: hello?! anong gay guys? gusto ko straight guy! gaga.
erica: but i dont think straight guys will go for a gay. right?
jose: lintik ka! ano ba ko?
erica: oh yeah, yeah. you're a girl pala.
jose: alam mo naman na ang preferences ko for a guy..right? chinito, taller than me (well he should stand 5'8 to 5'10), mabait, kind, sweet, gentleman, funny, somewhat jealous, a guy who will accept me, smarter than me, and has a fine body.(ayaw ko ng lampa-lampa.) IN SHORT..perfect!
erica: nyeh..here we go again. cge cge, il find one in my village.

kanina pa toh eh. nde ko lang alam baket ito ang feelings ko.
so many things happened.
so many things was done.
so i had no awful moments.
(except for the fact that i saw someone which is so irritatable to my eyes..)
had a GREAT and a GOOD day today. (swear!)
gave kate her fruit roll-ups.
gave myrrh, ian, teppie, john, vince, the other vince, erica, and donna, my so-called "lucky gum".
had a yosi date with teppie. (NYEH!! yosi date?!?)
THE LETTER. (parang movie title. hehe.)
saw jasper, tetet, renz, joseph, dench, and gabriel.
(hah! kulang nalang yung love of my life ko na si christopher. haha.)
my botany is doing fine. (kakasimula palang eh..)
called many people.
nangulit ng mga tao.
had a lunch with erica.
hinatid si billie sa espana na maski malayo eh masaya pa rin ako.
they bought that stupid 24/7 card. haha.
tapos we walked hanggang makapunta ng post office para hintayin ang bagong driver ni teppie.
dba MAM??! hahaha...

and in the end of this treasured great day,
hay nakoh. masaya pa rin ako.
its no use running from the truth. (connection nito dito?)
kaya mas maganda ang mag-share. haha.
coz ian drove me at my house. (tama ba yung english ko? mali ata..shet..turn-off naman!)
at shempre with my twin kate.
maski malayo, maski pinipilit ko na mag-taxi na ko, na maski itong kate na toh manakot daw ba na nde na kame friend. cge go..
(wala nang pakelamanan pwede? haha.)
its irresistible to laugh seeing kate and ian go gaga.
had a great time. (nyeh!!!!)

....i have to finish my term paper. (haha. parang ulol eh noh..)

2004-11-04T23:52:00.000-08:00

uggh. im in the school library right now. haha.
just finished reading all of those cheesy post by someone. :)
grr! everything happens for a reason.
nye?! teardrops falled from my eyes kaya.
shet! nakakainis talaga yang buhay na yan.
kung pwede lang sana bilhin lahat ika nga ni myrrh. (pati boyfriend bibilhin? haha..)

haha..40 days till i become a grown up 17 years old human. (nyeh! grown up ka dyan! human pa..)
im still enjoying my being 16 coz that's what the year many things happened to me.
eh ano naman ngayon?
eh ano rin sayo? pakelam mo ba!

uy sabi dun sa color quiz ba yun.. intelligent daw ako? nyeh! intelligent ka dyan..
wala lang..sharing.
and so there's this sheila who happens to question someone.
"nyeh! fuck you ka. walang panget samin noh. ikaw ang panget! epal ka!! tangina mo.." dba myrrh?
leche. pinainit mo ulo ko.

The stars reminded me of you... how they can simply shine and make me smile, how they sparkle and make the whole world bright, how they can be near yet be so far.

2004-11-03T02:23:00.000-08:00

nyah.
my efforts are all wasted.
i woke up just after my 4 hours sleep and then there's no classes pala.
damn.

one way or another, i have to spend this day with a lot of things to do.

hanged-out at robin's pad with billie, babs, and rj.
watched some cd's.
talked about the lovelife they had.
the vacation they've been. (puerto galera!! :) haha. nakakainis talaga yang men's pharma volleyball team na yan. nde nagyayaya.)
si ryan nanaman pinaguusapan nila.

and so i had to leave coz myrrh and kate texted me.
they were with ian DAW.
dammit!
nagmadali pa naman ako umalis para makita si ian.
wala rin pala.
eh ano ngayon kung matagal ako.
does that mean he has to leave? pakshet!
andrama.
hahahaha.. :)

we watched the First Daughter which is a real good movie. haha. :)
i fell inlove with it.
oh well, that's my story anyways.
but im not the president's daughter.
im the prince of wales first daughter. (literal na first daughter ah. haha.)
cge.. dream on!

we ate. we ate ba talaga? nakalimutan ko na kung kumain kami eh.

haha. :)

i miss bloggin'.

2004-10-20T09:31:00.000-07:00

anong alam ko sa mundong toh?

MERON BA.

2004-10-12T01:26:00.000-07:00

so this is what college meant for me huh?
math really sucks!
no i mean.. ITS A TOTAL BULLSHIT.

2004-10-07T23:34:00.000-07:00

ok, so sembreak started right after the hell zoology finals..
and that was about 9:30 this morning.

uhhh. what do you care anyways?

this is what im waiting for.
a BREAK.
a 3 weeks break.
a break in commuting for about an hour and a half just to get to UST.
a break in a never-ending smoke pollution.
a break in homeworks/seatworks/quizzes/and mother fuckin' PRACTICAL TESTS in zoology.
oh yes, that's what i really need.
a break from that hell practical tests.
i dont like it anymore.

in the other hand,
im surely 100% gonna miss my ralph.
uh basically, my world revolves around him anyways.
so, its ralph that i will going to miss and not everyone else.
hahaha.

...and also the school. dammit!

oh so what now?
im terribly terrified with my final grades.
im so over-to-death asar with this hell semester. (nde man lang ako nag-aaral)
i always cram.
so what does this mean?
im expecting to have a low grades in chemistry, zoology, and math.
hey, hey, what do you expect with all of those tamaditis days?
3.0?
mas mababa pa?
oo. dahil eeng-eng eng-eng ka!
(wag naman sana..grabe toh!)

siguro nga, mag-nonovena nalang muna ko ng punyeta pumasa ako!! leche..

dammit!

2004-10-05T06:35:00.000-07:00

stupid haircut.
unknown grades in math, chemistry and zoology.
many scheduled outings.
no money.
five more exams for finals and im not yet studying.
the "kaba" is there.

oh that's great. how's that for a dream of having 3.0 in my 3 subjects? huh?

will i pass first semester? i hope so.
how can i pass if my quizzes sucks? i dont know.
will you stay in medtech? if they let me to.

uh damn.

then do good in FINALS.